Worries?

I haven't blogged since forever and most likely there won't be a lot of posts following but who knows. So this is the first post for 2011. 3rd year in university. These past years have passed in a blink of an eye. Right now I'm just finishing of the second last semester on my bachelors degree and I only have one exam left. Not sure though if I'll be able to pass it first try as I'm not getting much done here in the library.

This semester has been a tough one. It's been about constantly waiting for things to get easier and full of stress. Not just school stuff but about everything else too. I haven't been out that much and I haven't had as much fun as I had wished. So I'm hoping that the next semester would be a turn for the better since I'll have a looser schedule. I'm also worried about K. Her school stress is something that's on a completely different level from mine. She also has a lot of other shitty stuff going on with her family and so on. I'm worried. Worried that she'll leave for an academic leave. Worried that the stress is going to lead to a complete burn out. Worried that everything is going to change.

Sometimes changes are a good thing but everything that's around the corner and which you can't see is scary. I've been working a lot to accept this "maybe".

Not to be just pessimistic, I am waiting for spring and summer. I won't work next summer because I have saved enough money to be able to travel and take it easy. So the plan is to go Interrailing with K. That's probably the most motivating thing right now that keeps me going. I'm not depressed nor am I unhappy but I'm worried and mostly not about myself. It's a shitty feeling and I haven't really been face to face with it before. K called me an egoist the other day and I guess she's right. I think of myself as a considerate person but at the end of the day I'm used to blocking out difficulties which don't include me.

So live to fight another day! I hope I'll pass my last exam on wednesday and then I can chill out for a few days. I hope things will not fall apart and that I'll have a word in how things go.

2011 started off with worries but I'm sure it will end with peace of mind. Peace Out!