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Pre-exam feelings.

2012-01-25T10:43:00.004+02:00

Right now I'm chilling in the library once again. I've got my last exam for the semester in 90 minutes and for some reason I felt the need to take a brake. My head feels like it's going going to explode because there is so much informationto absorb. I hope I'll be able to pass the exam but my chances are pretty slim. I'm hoping for good questions.

I'm still feeling pretty good though because I passed my exam yesterday and that one would have been a huge pain in the ass to re-take next year.This one is a bit easier if I happen to fail today.

Today will mark the beginning of my short holiday so I'm pretty psyched about that too. I hope I'll manage to get my new mixtape done and do some home improvment by installing a shelf to my dj booth. I also want to visit home and spend some quality time with Kirke. So a lot to look forward to. I'll also have a couple of reggae gigs before the week ends and I'm happy about those too because well I just happen to love blasting reggae music from a soundsystem.

I also forgot to mention in the last post that I now live together with Kirke. For some reason this keeps escaping from my mind when I recap 2011. I guess it's because of all the other things happening and because Kirke pretty much lived at my place last year.

Ok, I'll post more stuff when I get home from the exam. I'm afraid it wont be a positive post though. We'll see. Peace out!

11 months since last post

2012-01-23T03:05:00.003+02:00

I haven't written anything in 11 months now. I'm not gonna go through why. I guess I just didn't feel like it. During this time a lot has happened so I'll write a little recap of the past year and how this one has started. Most likely I won't be very active with this blog but who knows. Maybe I'll get a new spark to this writing thing.

In the last post it was february. Kirke was about to get her exam results and we were going to Finland. I had also just played my first gig in Teine Maailm and made my debut in the estonian reggae scene.

A lot has changed since then. Kirke failed her exam and had to go on academic leave. Last week she got she finally had a chance to re-do the exam and she passed. This was a huge releaf and made us both very happy.

Since last february my DJ hobby has also taken off and so far I've played in all the main reggae parties in Estonia. As far as this DJ thing goes, I've had a great year and I'm super grateful for the experiences that I've gotten. Last february was my first reggae gig and now I have about 3-4 gigs every month and also a new monthly club in which I play a part. I have also played at a lot of different clubs and venues some which are the biggest in Estonia. I couldn't be more happy with the opportunities that I've gotten at the moment and I'm sure this year will be even better.

School is another thing that has changed drastically. I graduated and I'm now a Bachelor of Arts in Education. I'm proud that I got everything done last spring and my thesis got an A and some national media coverage. This fall I got into the masters program and now I'm trying to do that. I had the honor of presenting my thesis at a scientific conference which displayed the best thesis from our institute. Since starting with the masters program I haven't been that motivated which I'm not happy with. Right now I have two exams which I haven't passed yet and my study motivation is in the gutter. I hope I'll be able to pass them next week. Otherwise I have to do them next year which wouldn't be very ideal. We'll see.

Other highlights of last year were not working the summer and going Interrailing which had been a dream of mine since I was 12-years old. I hope I'll get to do something similar this year. I also hope to spend some more time with friends and pick up skateboarding again. We have a plan cooking which would include a lot of surfing and most likely Portugal or France. I hope that will happen.

That's it for now. Maybe I'll get the itch to write something again soon. Peace Out!

P.S Here is my favorite tune at the moment!

Mi nah say mi nah change

cause mi no know how di future tun

but if mi change

please mek mi be a better man

Valentines day

2011-02-14T12:53:00.002+02:00

It's a beautiful day. I woke up, Kirke went to the doctor, I made myself an omelette, I sorted my school stuff out and oh yeah the sun is shining. The only negative thing is that its monday. This week is also my birthday which I'll celebrate in Finland this time. I'm glad that I can take Kirke with me and since I haven't been home after new years I'm looking forward to it.

Its Valentines day too. This day has never really had any special significance to me but I was positively surprised when Kirke gave me a Valentines card yesterday. Not to sound too cliche but I'd say I'm a lucky guy in every aspect. I hope I can do the same for her that she does to me. I know that she's neck deep in all her school stress right now but I hope the weekend will be way to get her out of it.

My dad offered to pay for our ferry tickets, an offer which I gladly accepted. I don't want Kirke to feel in debt though. One thing that makes things more difficult for us is the fact that right now we are on different levels financially. I have the opportunity to do what I want without worrying too much about money while she has to keep an eye on every cent she spends. I want to share my experiences with her and that means paying for her costs too sometimes. I don't worry about it as I feel that that money is well spent but I know she worries the hell out of it. I know she worries about the ferry tickets, the train tickets, my birthday gift and so on. Its a shitty feeling on my side too. I know she doesn't want to live in my apartment and that she wants to make it on her own but right now that's not possible so I do my best to help. Sometimes that's a good thing and sometimes she gets mad at me. All in a day of living in a relationship I guess.

I should get to school soon so I'll quit while I'm ahead :). Peace Out!

Simpel Session and Sugarcane

2011-02-14T00:27:00.004+02:00

It's been a busy couple of weeks. Last weekend was the Simpel Session in Tallinn. I felt quite guilty going to Tallinn on friday because Kirke still had her final exam to do. I still went as I the guys were coming from Finland and the whole thing had been planned ages ago. Friday was a day of mixed emotions in that way. I felt guilty leaving Kirke on her own but at the same time I was happy to get out of the "madhouse" in Tartu and get a weekend away from all the stress.

When I arrived to Tallinn I headed for the hotel where the guys where staying. We soon headed for the official Simpel Session party which was once again held in Urban House. After getting the first beers we soon discovered that the place was packed with underaged BMX groupies who would do anything for a night with a BMX'er or skateboarder. We got a few good laughs while chatting with these girls and decided to head to the dancefloor. This year the theme of the party was disco. In my opinion the party flopped. The live band played tunes like Copacabana and the Dj's played Beegee's. We felt like we were on a cruise to Sweden. Not that there's anything wrong with Beegees and Disco but in a party full of skaters and bikers it wasn't going to work. We headed to Tommi's after 2am with a quick stop at Hesburger. There I had a funny conversation with this beautiful girl who tried very hard to cut in front of the line. I took it easy and despite her line-cutting attempts she ended up laughing at herself and I got my order in. We also met Brandon Turner (pro-skater) who was shitfaced and tried to buy ketchup and only ketchup from Hesburger. My friend B took a photo with him which turned out really good. A wasted black guy and a pale wasted finnish guy in the same photo is always good. After Hes we took a cab to Tommi's place and crashed.

Around 10.30 am on sunday we got up and headed to the venue. Got beers, watched skateboarding and had some laughs. As the other guys headed to town I stayed to watch the BMX qualifiers. After some time I also headed to town, got some drinks and went to the hotel where some of the guys were staying. After sinking the drinks we had and the guys doing their best at getting the fire alarm turned on we headed for Beer House. We ate and drank well and finally went to Hollywood where the second Simpel Session was held. This time the party was good. The place was packed, the DJ's killed it and finally around 5.30am after some guys drink fell on my t-shirt we decided to call it a night. E picked up a finnish chick and went to her hotel for the night and we went to Tommi's again.

I woke up in the morning still drunk which was good because I didn't feel very shitty. Once again we headed to Saku Suurhall and had a day full of good skateboarding. M and R had reached the semifinals on saturday so we cheered them on but unfortunately they both missed the finals. No wonder though as they where also drinking til 6am. After the finals we went to Tommi's and as the guys went to Popular for some shisha I took a bus back to Tartu. By this time the hangover had already kicked in and it lasted for a good two days.

On monday we got the news that Kirke passed her exam and that she still has a chance to reach the next semester. This was a big releaf. The rest of the week passed with me playing records and hanging out with Kirke. I felt pretty shitty the whole week and had a small cold of some sort. The finale of the week was still ahead though. I was to play at Sugarcane for the first time. I was excited about it as I had wanted to play reggae and dancehall for a while now in Tartu.

The party didn't turn out to be what I expected. First of all I had to play with CD's which I had never done before. This affected the quality of my mixing but later on I started to get a hang of it. I played the warm-up set which was followed by a very weird roots reggae/tropical house/electro set. By this time most of the people who I knew at the party came to me and said "I though this was a reggae party not an electro party". I couldn't have agreed more but this was only the beginning. This set was followed by hardcore Dubstep, Drum n Bass and Jungle. I got to play again at 3.30am and by that time everybody had forgotten that this should have been a reggae party. I stuck to my plan and played dancehall and soca. I wasn't very satisfied with my set though as in the beginning I didn't notice that they had changed the channels where the cd players were and the crossfader settings were different too. This resulted in a few shitty mixes but soon I got the hang of it. My final set was only 30minutes long so I didn't get much stuffed into it but it was decent I guess. By this time I was already sick of dubstep so we headed home. The party turned out to be a electro/dubstep/drum n bass party and because of this I felt that I didn't really fit in. It was a good dubstep party though but not what I expected. Well hopefully there will be a next time and hopefully I'll get to play longer sets. All in all it was a good experience and it introduced me to a wider audience. My soundcloud page has gotten over 120 plays and 30 downloads this week so I'm happy.

That wraps it up. I won't continue this marathon post anymore but I will post my latest mix here though. The best tunes in Reggae and Dancehall in 2010. Enjoy and I'll continue my thoughts tomorrow maybe!

Twenty-ten inna Jamaica Mix by Mängi/Masu

Little update

2011-01-29T00:29:00.002+02:00

I got my final exam result today so the semester is officially over. I also got my mix ready a few days ago. I'm not going to share it yet as the mix will most likely be released on This Mixtape is so 2010 website. I'll share the link as it appears. In other news I took up running again. Slowly but steadily I hope I can make it a regular thing as I need the exercise. As my school is done for the semester I'm just going to chill around for another week and next weekend I'll head to Tallinn for Simpel Session. I'm looking forward to that as a bunch of guys from the Vague gang are coming over and one of them is also competing. Should be a good weekend.

As I really have nothing to write about I'm just going to hit the sack get back to blogging later...
Bombs Over The Bay ft. Outkast, Wailing Souls, Santigold, Major Lazer by DJ THEORY

Sleepless

2011-01-22T01:39:00.004+02:00

Can't catch any sleep so I'm listening to Komposti's newest mix and wondering around the internet. Today went surprisingly well. No good news but nothing bad either so I'll take it. Went to see the new Angelina Jolie and Johnny Depp flick and later recorded the first draft of my new mix. After listening to it I still feel like I have to record it again tomorrow and make a few changes. I'm kinda nervous about tomorrow too because I should recieve my last grade of the semester. So I'm hoping for the best. Nothing more to share I guess. Oh yeah, this beat has been playing in my head for the past few days so I'll post it. At first I didn't think much of the tune at first but I like it more and more by every play. Peace out!

Better must come

2011-01-21T01:57:00.003+02:00

Tomorrow holds potential. What kind? I Don't know yet but this time it might have potential to go badly. Kirke has her last chance to pass two tests tomorrow morning. If she doesn't she'll have to take an academic leave. That would most likely mean that she'll leave Tartu for some time and probably mean a long distance relatioship between us. So how do I feel about it? Worried, scared and sad mostly. But I'm still optimistic. I guess I'll sleep with my fingers crossed and hope for the best. I know that if she'll pass, she still has an enormous amount of stress because she'll still have to pass the final exams and that stress is eating her up mentally everyday and has been for a while now. I wonder if the academic leave would give her a chance to do more things that make her happy. At the same time I know that I'd be less happy if she's gone. So it's a tricky situation and tomorrow might be the start of something new, a delay of the inevitable or the step that puts things back to normal. My eyes barely stay open as I write this but I try to put on a strong face and keep my thoughts positive. Better mus come was the name of an old Jamaican movie and some old tune too. I'll keep that in mind as I go to sleep hoping that tomorrow actualizes it's positive potential. Peace Out!

Best of Reggae and Dancehall in 2010

2011-01-17T22:35:00.003+02:00

Still haven't succeeded in studying that much today but I'm feeling better. I just started thinking about music, specifically reggae and dancehall music. I thought I'd list some of my favorite tunes from 2010 as an intro to the mixtape that I'm planning on making before the weekend which will consist of all my favorite tunes from 2010. So here it goes, the biggest tunes of 2010!

J Boog - Let's do it again

This tune came out of the bushes to become the biggest reggae tune of the year. J Boog hails from the island of Hawaii and was picked up by Don Corleon for this riddim and the result is pure sweetness. The Major riddim has multiple tunes on it that are huge but this one takes the crown.

Romain Virgo - Dark Skin Girl

This one came out on Romain's debut album and blew up the bank. Sweet love tune with a positive riddim and his voice and flow of lyrics are at it's best here.

Beenie Man ft.Fambo - Drinking Rum&Red Bull

I guess there is no reason to introduce this song. It has been played everywhere this year and has become the nr.1 party tune of the year. I still listen to this a lot and I can't wait to buss it at future parties. I hope Estonian sounds would play this more often too.

I-Octane - My Life

Not just this tune but all of I-Octane's tunes this year have gotten a lot of plays everywhere. He is without a doubt the newcomer of the year alongside Khago. Tunes like Mama you alone, Love, Study your friends, Lose a friend and Nuh love inna dem have opened a lot of mixes and you can expect a lot more from him in 2011.

Konshens - Realest song

I think this one came out in 2009 but I found it in 2010 and it quickly became a part of my feel better tune arsenal. Keep badmind outta yuh heart!

That's it for my favorite tunes. I'll post the Best of 2010 mix by the weekend. Before that have a listen to my last dancehall mix "Check di Riddim vol.2". Peace Out!

Worries?

2011-01-17T15:08:00.003+02:00

I haven't blogged since forever and most likely there won't be a lot of posts following but who knows. So this is the first post for 2011. 3rd year in university. These past years have passed in a blink of an eye. Right now I'm just finishing of the second last semester on my bachelors degree and I only have one exam left. Not sure though if I'll be able to pass it first try as I'm not getting much done here in the library.

This semester has been a tough one. It's been about constantly waiting for things to get easier and full of stress. Not just school stuff but about everything else too. I haven't been out that much and I haven't had as much fun as I had wished. So I'm hoping that the next semester would be a turn for the better since I'll have a looser schedule. I'm also worried about K. Her school stress is something that's on a completely different level from mine. She also has a lot of other shitty stuff going on with her family and so on. I'm worried. Worried that she'll leave for an academic leave. Worried that the stress is going to lead to a complete burn out. Worried that everything is going to change.

Sometimes changes are a good thing but everything that's around the corner and which you can't see is scary. I've been working a lot to accept this "maybe".

Not to be just pessimistic, I am waiting for spring and summer. I won't work next summer because I have saved enough money to be able to travel and take it easy. So the plan is to go Interrailing with K. That's probably the most motivating thing right now that keeps me going. I'm not depressed nor am I unhappy but I'm worried and mostly not about myself. It's a shitty feeling and I haven't really been face to face with it before. K called me an egoist the other day and I guess she's right. I think of myself as a considerate person but at the end of the day I'm used to blocking out difficulties which don't include me.

So live to fight another day! I hope I'll pass my last exam on wednesday and then I can chill out for a few days. I hope things will not fall apart and that I'll have a word in how things go.

2011 started off with worries but I'm sure it will end with peace of mind. Peace Out!

Boredom

2010-10-22T11:21:00.003+03:00

It's another friday morning and I'm still laying in bed. It's snowing outside which creeps me out. I'm bored. Actually I've been bored pretty much the whole week. I kind of want to do something but I end up doing nothing because first of all I think I dont have the energy to do anything and secondly, I just can't come up with an idea of what I want to do. So I'm bored. I've pretty much just played fifa11 the whole week. Yesterday we played some monopoly and had a few beers which was cool. I haven't even DJ'd this week because I can't decide on what I want to play. I should finish one of my mixtape projects while I'm bored but I have no inspiration right now.

Ok, this post turned out to be the most boring post ever but I'll still post it. Maybe it will help me get over this boredom. So to finish here's a tune for you to listen.

Trippin

2010-10-18T00:15:00.004+03:00

Another blog post with the same old beginning - I haven't written anything in a while for multiple reasons. This time I just didn't feel like it.
But anyways about ten days ago me and Kirke decided one morning, that morning being wednesday that we don't want to spend the weekend in Tartu. On tuesday night we went to see this Julia Roberts flick called Eat, Pray, Love and in the film Julia Roberts went to Bali. The film was pretty much shit but Bali stayed in both of our minds. So on that wednesday morning we were joking around that maybe we should go to Bali the same day. Slowly the conversation moved on to a point where we were discussing what classes we have before the weekend and can we skip any of those. The conversation ended with the conclusion that we have too much important stuff to do and Bali or any other place had to wait. I went to my spanish class that day and just as I was entering the building where my class was I got a call from Kirke. She said to me "fuck it, let's do it". At that point I had already given up the idea of going somewhere but I said ok and told her that I'll just go to my spanish class and then we'll see where we can get some cheap plane tickets. It turned out that the cheapest place to go on that day was Brussels and we bought the tickets, travelled by bus to Riga and on thursday morning we got on a plane. I don't really have the energy to write about all that happened but I can say that we had a really nice weekend and we saw a lot. We had a travel log with us where we wrote everything down and maybe one day I'll post it.

After the trip everything has been pretty boring. I got a consultant professor or whatever you call it for my bachelor thesis and we got the new Fifa 11. Thursday was a bit more interesting as I was playing at Club Illusion. The party upstairs wasn't as good as last year when I played but it was decent and I had a good time all in all. I played a lot of electronic stuff and also some dancehall. The next day passed by sleeping the whole day and I felt surprisingly hung over.

So now it's already sunday and today I haven't done anything. I don't really know what I should have done either so I don't feel too bad about it. I feel sorry for Kirke though as she has had to study shitloads and unfortunately she's been neglecting her studyduties today. I hope she can get her stuff worked out but right now I dont really envy her as she has to pull an allnighter. As for me I'm going to sleep and while doing that I'm going to listen to this tune. Peace out!

P.S This tune reminded me that today I started making a new playlist for tunes I'd like to have in my Rainy Day Blues Vol.2 Mix. So this means I'll try to make a new mix of übersmooth going-to-sleep tunes soon. We'll see when I actually get it done but I have a good selection of tunes already.

Mellow weekend

2010-10-05T00:31:00.003+03:00

Another weekend has passed and I haven't done shit. The weekend pretty much consisted of watching Ryder Cup on TV, smoking shisha and just hangin out. It was nice but I feel like I should do something important. I don't know why that is or what I should actually be doing. I'm lazy and I'm bored. I'm stressed because I have nothing to do. I realise that my life so easy compared to others but I still don't acknowledge it. Maybe tomorrow and a 8 hour school day will bring me back to reality. I should get a consultant professor for my bachelor thesis and I should postpone my civil service in Finland. I should also go to Finland and I should start preparing for a big party that I'm playing in ten days. But right now I'm just going to try and get into my comfort zone and continue with everything else tomorrow.

Oh yeah. I made a dancehall mix consisting of 41 tunes from the past years and some brand new tunes as well. Have a listen on my mixcloud or download it for yourself. Feedback is highly appreciated eventhough I'm not sure if anybody even reads this blog anymore. You can find the tracklist on mixcloud.

The other thing I wanted to share tunewise was a video from this finnish guy I've never heard of before. Really smooth voice and repping Helsinki. I really like the video and I'm digging the vibes. It's not often that you see immigrants in Finland doing this kind of stuff. Peace out!

Gracias - HKI from Cocoa © on Vimeo.

Golf'n shit

2010-10-01T15:54:00.002+03:00

I've been overly busy so I didn't really have the time or energy to write anything down this week. Let me start from last thursday which during this semester represents the beginning of the weekend.
So on thursday we had planned a get together with my course. We started off at Suudlevad Tudengid where I went straight from my last lecture. There were about 5 of us in the beginning and after having a few drinks and chatting I headed home for a change of clothes. As my plan was to hang out with my coursemates my roommates and Kirke's plan was the same. So I chilled out with my roommate and some of his coursefriends at our place for a while playing the new Fifa 11 demo and then headed out to Püssirohukelder. Like always the beer was übercheap and so was the vodka. The result was that I was feeling good and we had a good 10-12 people there too. After Püss everyone pretty much faded and we headed with a few coursemates to Trepp. Had a few beers and after this I heard that Kirke was in Zavood. I was already very tired so I wanted to go home but Kirke was pumped up and wanted to dance. So I sat around for a while and then we headed out. Nothing good comes out when when a drunken couple disagree about leaving. When one is tired and the other one not at all then what you end up with is a fight.

The next morning we woke up and had both forgotten what the fight was really about and went on with our lives laughing at what had happened. The plan for the day was to ge to Tallinn. The day passed with taking a walk and just chillin. On saturday the plan was to meet up with my dad in Tallinn and the head to Jõelähtme golf course to play a round before sundays Webmedia Family Tour competition. The round on saturday was a disaster but after watching some golf lessons on dvd the competition on sunday went pretty well. We played with this father and son team and managed to rack up 33 points. With that score we ended up in 32nd place which was satisfying for me . The first 9 holes went pretty badly but we played well on the back 9. The team we played against got 35 points and Kirkes mom and her brother ended up in 4th place. Kirke was very happy about that but the fact that she had to study all night for her exam the next day wasn't a very exhilarating thought.

That's about it on what has happened. But I also have to write a bit about what I've been thinking lately. Although it's just the beginning of october everything is already very stressful. In a relationship that means constantly having small pointless arguments and things that shouldn't normally bug you bug you. So I feel like I have to watch my words in order for them not to get misinterpreted. The other things is that when I'm stressed out I go along with these pointless arguments and I have ha hard time remaining my calm. This stresses me out even more and like always I end up feeling guilty and analysing my actions over and over again.

Now it's friday again and this weekend I'm going to take it easy. Have some good food, chill out with Kirke and try to study.

Country Life

2010-09-21T20:40:00.002+03:00

It's 4.30 pm and I'm sitting at a lecture about literary science or something like that. It's raining outside and I feel like leaving. The lecture is once again pretty pointless because the professor is just talking and talking but there's no real structure in his speech. So I'm tired and not really patient enough to concentrate on his words.

Actually what I wanted to write about is the past weekend. We went to Saaremaa with Kirke( she gave me permission to use her name so from now on K is Kirke) to visit her grandparents and get away for the weekend. The whole weekend was pretty wet and windy but I really enjoyed myself. There's just something about going to the countryside. No stress, no worries to sum it up I guess. We took down some branches, re-planted some bushes, hung out by the ocean and ate truckloads of food. Kirke's grandmother makes really good food and out of respect I gave in on my beliefs and ate some meat that she had prepared. It's not like it's the end of the world but I still feel a bit guilty for it. But the food was great and on sunday afternoon my belly was so full that the next time I could even think about putting somethingin my mouth was around 11 pm when we were back in Tartu. but it was nice to sped time in Saaremaa and we even found time to visit my grandmother for a few minutes. I hope I can go back to Saaremaa and to my summer cottage during this autumn but we'll see.

Now I'm back in Tartu and the weather is pretty much the same as it was during the weekend. Right now It's raining and I took my cruiser deck to this lecture while it was still dry but I'll probably have to carry it back home. I didn't mention it before but I got myself a new skateboard for cruising around. A perfect 70's style Dogtown deck with 66mm soft wheels and fast bearings. It rolls perfectly smooth and I really enjoy riding it to school everyday. Two days to go and then it's the weekend again because I have fridays off. My motivation for school is still a bit lost but I'm doing my best to go to lectures and get all my things done. Yesterday I was pretty active and got all my papers sent to Finland after some byrocracy from the university.

On friday I'll go to Tallinn for the weekend to play golf which I'm also really looking forward to. I haven't played in a while and my dad is bringing my golfbag and other stuff to Tallinn so I'll get to play with my own clubs. It's going to be interesting because on saturday we are going to be competing on the final stop of the Family Tour. That means that me and Kirke are going to be a team and play one ball. I hope I'll manage to keep my head cool and not get into any fights with Kirke on or off the course. I'm sure it's going to be heaps of fun and I hope we'll find time to play on friday or sunday as well.

That's it. Musically I'm trying to form tracklists for some new mixes and hopefully I'll find time to play and record them soon. I have about 5 different projects I'd like to get done before christmas but we'll see how many I can actually get together. Here's a tune thats been my going to sleep-tune for the past week. Perfect soul music!

First lecture thoughts

2010-09-14T10:43:00.003+03:00

Sitting in the first lecture of the day. I feel like going home because the teacher is just reading the Powerpoint outloud. But I have nothing to do at home so I'm sitting here blogging. Today seems a lot better than yesterday although it's going to take 7 hours before my day ends. The panic that I had yesterday about my responsibilities has gradually faded but I feel like I need to get something done today to ease the burden. So I'll try to get my funding papers sent to Finland. Small steps eh? I should also prepare a playlist of some sort for thursday. I'm also looking forward to getting my new skateboard. Can't wait to bomb the hills of Tartu. I didn't really have any point in this post but I just want to keep writing.
Anyways yesterday was also interesting because after some time I found myself wanting to listen to Hip-Hop. I've been so in the Reggae/Dancehall world recently that I've forgotten all about good Hip-Hop. But yesterday I stumbled on some Looptroop on my Ipod and listened to almost the whole album while slowly walking to K's house. Here's a tune and I'll get back to writing when I get some brighter thoughts. Peace Out!

Too much to bear

2010-09-13T12:23:00.003+03:00

Hello!

Haven't written anything in 7 months now and I feel like my head has a bit too much to bear already. So I'll start writing again. I'm not going to make a huge recap post because that is pointless. Spring and summer are now gone and I have begun my third year at university. This means that I'll hopefully get my bachelors degree next spring.

Right now I'm feeling really shitty. I don't even know why but today just hasn't started well. I feel dizzy and unmotivated to do anything. I just skipped my Spanish class in order to attend a british history lecture. This past weekend has an influence on my current mood. The whole weekend was pretty much about partying. On Thursday it was my roommates birthday which ment drinking. On friday we got five austrian girls surfing our couch. We showed them a few bars in town. On saturday I was Dj'ing at a freshman party for veterinarians. The party was pretty lame as last year because the speakers didn't work like they were supposed to , there werent that much people and people didnt really dance. There were also some random russians who tried to get into the party and got thrown out. After this they came back and a fight erupted. The end result was that a friend of mine has his shoulder dislocated, the police came and the doors were locked. But otherwise everything was fine. I drank free beer and got a decent pay for the night. After the party I still wanted to go out so I did with this finnish girl who is my roommates friend from his highschool times. We tried to get other people to join us but everyone was already sleeping at home. So we went to Zavood, had a beer and then we climbed and crossed the bridge in order for her to lose her freshman status. I took a taxi home and woke up the next day with a decent hangover. I met up with K later and the rest of the day passed with chilling, taking walk, making a nice salad and watching a movie.

So today I feel like shit. Another monday means responsibilities and right now I don't really want to face them. On thursday I'm DJ'ing another freshman party which will be a bigger one. On friday morning I'm taking the first bus to Saaremaa to visit K's grandparents. I'm looking forward to that because it will give a chance to take it easy for a few days.

I don't know what more I should write . My life is going pretty well. I have a lot of school things to do and I'm feeling stressed about all the things I need to get done before spring. I have a great girlfriend, good friends and I don't have to worry about my finance. So i'll try to start feeling better and deal with my responsibilities.

Weird vibes

2010-02-14T21:39:00.002+02:00

It's been a while since I last chilled by myself at home. My room is really messed up or actually the whole apartment is pretty messy as my roommate hade some sort of a pokerparty here last night. It's valentines day and I feel pretty stressed out for some reason. I guess it's all this school stuff. I had a week off but I still feel like I need 2 more. I've got a lot to do this week and all I want to do is chill out, watch movies and not get out of bed.

At the same time I feel stupid about being a bit down today. Everything is good and I've got nothing to worry about. I went to K's greatgrandmothers funeral yesterday. It was pretty surreal. I felt a bit like an outsider as I didn't really know the people there that well and I had never met the deceased. I hope I was of some support to K. It was also a pretty weird place to meet her relatives for the first time. All-in all everything went fine but this day has somekind of weird energy. I don't know where it comes from. Maybe K's vibes transferred into me or something. I've also been thinking about this relationship thing. It's funny how you find new parts of yourself when youre with someone. I've never been in a relationship for over 4 months. It feels weird to want to spend so much time with someone. But at the same time it's nice to get to know someone really deeply and have someone who's there for you. I'm not saying that I wouldn't have friends who are there for me but it's different. I don't know, my mind just collapsed in on itself. A weird day this valentines day.Peace Out!

I just saw this new version of We Are The World today. At first I was a bit dissapointed in it but I really like Wyclef in it and the whole hip-hop breakdown part. Check it out!

04.02.10

2010-02-13T22:50:00.002+02:00

04.02.10

Last night was a whole lot of fun. The sauna was really nice and I even went outside and jumped into the snow. In the morning I had a pretty bad headache from the wine but luckily M gave me some painkillers to remove the headache. Somewhere around 3pm we packed all our things and headed to the car. The first 50m was ok but then we saw what was ahead of us. The strong wind had blown huge stacks of snow onto the road and it was quite impossible to get through them with the car we had. We even got stuck . So after getting the car out of the snow we cleared a path for the car. After driving another 300m we got to our next obstacle. This time the snowpiles were so high and they went on for 50m that we called quits. We called up the village manager and he told us that he would try to arrange a tracktor to clear the road for us. Our only option was to go back to the house. This was actually a good thing because now we had time to make a proper salad and eat the leftover soup and other food that we had with us. Finally around 7pm we got going and got out of the village fine this time. We drove to the harbour to catch a ferry to the mainland and discovered that A-M had left something back at the house. This was a little drawback but as we weren’t in a rush and the house was only 5km from the harbour we happily went back to get the forgotten stuff. After all the hassle we finally catched the 8 o’clock ferry and drove back to Tallinn. All in all the trip was really nice and I really enjoyed just chilling out with good people . The house was nice, the weather was perfect, the food was good and the only negative thing about the whole trip was my running nose. So this wraps up the holiday part of the week and tomorrow I’m heading to Tallinn for the 2010 Simpel Session. I have some friends coming over to Tallinn and it’s going to be a weekend full of skateboarding, BMX and partying. It’s going to be weird to go to the big city after the last five days in the countryside. But I’m still looking forward to it and I bet it’s going to be a blast. Peace Out!

Here’s a tune that’s been playing in my head today

3.02.10

2010-02-13T22:46:00.002+02:00

3.02.10

Woke up this morning to a beautiful sunny morning in the Estonian countryside in Muhu island. I felt a bit snoozy but otherwise everything was pretty much perfect. Before we even got out of bed M and A-M called us for breakfast. M had cooked some omelettes and we also ate a piece of this cake that A-M had prepared a few days back. It felt exactly like being in a countryside B&B. Soon after this we decided to go for a walk and see this mansion nearby. It was beautiful as expected and it was refreshing to be outside in the cold air. When we got back to the house we stayed outside for a bit and cleared the road from this thick snow that the wind had gathered on the road. As our exit route from the house was secured we chilled by this swing and had some fun in the snow. I only had jeans on but that didn’t stop K from trying her best to wrestle me into the snow. The rest of the day passed with A-M cooking up some chicken-mushroom pasta. I added some smoked salmon instead of the chicken. We also played this game called Munchkin which is pretty cool. Right now I just woke up from a little nap and it’s 21.40pm and A-M is cooking some collieflower-broccoli soup and then the rest of the evening is going to include some more Munchkin, good food, wine and of course the sauna. Not a bad way to spend your week off from school I’d say.

Holiday week

2010-02-09T10:35:00.002+02:00

Because I had no access to the internet I wrote these following few posts on MS Word and I'm posting them now.

So once again it’s been a month with no posts. I’ve just been so overwhelmed with all my school stuff that there was no moment when I would have felt comfortable to write. This semester I had to re-do 3 exams and on top of that I had a week of practical work at this local school last week. Last year I had 2-3 week holiday and this year my winter holiday is 7 days. But before I write about my holiday so far I should write down some key points from January so that I won’t forget everything about it.

We’ll I came to Tartu on January 3rd accompanied with 2 friends from Finland. It was nice that they took the time to visit me but it was a shame that I had so much studyin to do that I didn’t really get to show them Tartu at it’s best. But I think they saw some things about Tartu and that they were mostly satisfied with their trip.
After the guys had gone it was pretty much studying, studying and studying for the next couple of weeks. Of course I should have read more because I failed 2 tests which after studying somewhat to them were actually quite easy. Instead of studying I chilled with K and that didn’t do good for neither of us, at least studyingwise. So now I’ve finally completed my exams and I should have passed them all. Right now I’m laying on a couch in Muhu island in Saaremaa. But more on that later.

The plan for this week was to go to Neeme to meet K’s mom and chillout with K and her family at their house. We headed towards Neeme on Saturday and arrived in the evening. I finally met K’s mom and her dog and the rest of the evening passed with some tea and TV. The next morning we headed to see this snowmobile being pulled up from the sea but we missed it and chilled out by the sea and I met some of K’s family friends. We also stacked some firewood and took some snow down from their roof. A pretty active day all-in all. On monday morning we decided to go cross-country skiing. I hadn’t gone skiing in ages so I was excited to give it a try. As we headed out it started to snow lightly and we went into the woods following this ski-track. After skiing through the woods we ended up at this dead-end street and with K’s advice decided to follow the path leading us onwards. There was no ski-track and we moved pretty slowly following some tracks made by an ATV. The nature was beautiful and with all the snow and of course K I really enjoyed it. When we got back we realised that we had been away for a couple of hours and that it was slowly getting darker. We still took the ladder and climbed up to the roof and tossed down some snow from the roof. It was fun and a bit dangerous too but luckily we both got down safely, me jumping into a snowpile and K taking the ladder. The rest of the day included sleeping, eating, some alternative medicine practises performed to me by K’s mom and finally watching the Grizzly Man documentary. I really enjoyed the day and eventhough me and K both had a bit of a flu it was lots of fun. Because their house is in the woods and pretty remote it actually felt more like being somewhere in Lapland on vacation than being in Estonia. The 50cm of snow + the woods + their house together really made it feel like something else.

So today we woke up and the plan was that K’s mom was to give us a ride to Tallinn and A-M would pick us up and we would head to Saaremaa. The whole plan had developed during the week before. K and A-M had a plan to go to Saaremaa together on the weekend. As that didn’t happen the plan was postponed to the week. Because K had already invited me to her house and didn’t want to skip that plan A-M invited me to join them. A-M’s boyfriend M took some days off from work and now we are all here at A-M’s summer cottage. There’s about 50-60cm of snow outside and it’s really beautiful. If K’s house and being in Neeme felt like a Lapland holiday then this place with it’s beautiful white kitchen and sea-view feels like the Hamptons on christmas or something similar. It’s pretty surreal but I’m enjoying it to the fullest. We’ve got plenty of food, plenty of boardgames and enough time. So that’s about it. Right now I’ll move away from this couch and head to play some boardgames. Peace Out!

No more 2kfine, 2010 is the deal

2009-12-31T18:53:00.001+02:00

LLLAAAWWWWWWDDD!!! I don't have the energy to recap 2009 today. Going to enjoy the night and leave blogging for tomorrow. Peace Out!!!

Svenska Teatern

2009-12-31T01:11:00.003+02:00

So the last day of 2009 has begun. It's snowing like hell outside with -10 degrees. I just came back from Helsinki. We went to see a musical with my dad and little sister. I really enjoyed myself. The singers were good,the storyline was decent and I liked the fact that they had included some street dancing into the routines. It was also cool that the musical was swedish and it was my first time visiting the Swedish Theatre in Helsinki. I'm a bit bummed that I'm so tired right now because I had a lot of thoughts on the train back that I wanted to write down and right now they've kinda faded as I'm so tired. But more about Noam Chomsky, politics, philosophy and other stuff in 2010 as tomorrows post will be an overall recap of my life in the year 2009.

P.S I just realised this post is totally pointless but whatever. At least I'll remember this day sometime in the future when I read this post. Enjoy the tune!!!

1,5 years

2009-12-29T01:37:00.003+02:00

I was talking on msn just now and out of some comment I remembered this old post about my perfect day I posted back in spring 2008. I kept on reading the posts of that spring and it just stuck me how happy I was back then. Don't get me wrong I'm happy where I am now but that time was just so stress free in a way although it might not have felt like it at that time. It's been 1,5 years and my life is so completely different from what it was then. It's funny, frightening and cool at the same time. I guess as the year is coming to an end it's time to start recapping things from the past year. I'll do that in some other posts but I'm just in a weird place right now.

Last christmas break Finland was still my 100% home. Right now I'm kinda stuck in the middle. I've got so much in Tartu and so much here. I feel like being in Tartu makes me lose some things here and vice versa. Of course I've made my decision. I'm gonna stay in Tartu for at least 1,5 years more but what then? It's even stupid to be thinking like this. If my life was completely different 1,5 years ago than it's probably going to be just as different in 2011. I guess I should enjoy the moment and see what happens. But as the dreamer I am, I already want to be in next week and next month while tomorrow seems scary. Two days to go until 2010. Now that's just crazy! Peace Out!

Here's a sweet hip-hop track. Maybe a bit late is it's cold outside already but still. Sweet tune.

December in an nutshell

2009-12-27T00:26:00.003+02:00

I've once again bee neglecting my blogging duties. This december has gone incredibly fast. I guess I'll try to recap some highlights of what has happened since my last post.

The first highlight was definitely seeing Mr. Vegas live @ Redrum. I'd have to say that it was the best live act I've seen in Redrum so far. The dance was also nice. I hadn't been in Redrum for a while and it was more that nice to dance the whole night so some sweet reggae/dancehall music. The selection was really good and I enjoyed it to the fullest. Sassa steppin to the wrl!!!

The other clear highlight was the last day I spent in Tartu this december. I guess it was the 18th. That day was übernice. We chilled with K all day but the day was really action packed. We visited some friends, had a nice walk, went to see my roommates floorball game, went to pick out a kitten for a friend from an animal shelter and the best of all opened presents for each other. I was more that happy by the presents K gave me and I was happy to see that she also liked the present I gave to her. The rest of the night passed with some PES, wine and chillin. I was a bit irritated too at one point but otherwise the day was übernice. Oh yeah and the day before we made some christmas cards and put them on the big christmas tree in town square. That was really nice too.

The next day I came to Finland for the christmas and that started with a bang too. There was a big christmas party at the local indoor skatepark. They had built a new ramp and fixed the place up really nice. I was really happy to see that and it was nice to skate the whole night and see a lot of friends. The downside was that I didn't get to Dj because we couldn't sort out the chords right but luckily I got to dj at the next party which was yesterday.

Otherwise I've just been chillin at home with family and friends. Enjoyed some good food, smoked some shisha and watched movies with friends. But now the chillin has to stop because I have to start studying for my exams in January. My plans for New years eve are pretty open too but I'm not that worried about that. I'll take it as it comes.

I'm kinda waiting for January already because I'll go back to Tartu and see K and friends but on the otherhand I'm not that excited about studying and exams and all the stress related to that. Well anyways I guess that's december in a nutshell. Peace Out!!!

P.S a girl requested this at the party last night. Supersmooth track. Summer soon come!!!

Dark Days

2009-12-02T19:34:00.004+02:00

God I hate my sleeping rhythm right now. I woke up really late today and it's been raining the whole day and it's really dark. I made a little demomix of some dubstep yesterday which came out really good. So I've just been listening to dubstep the whole day and doing nothing. Ok I did study a bit but it is not working out as well as I wished. I need to go to the library for a few hours before going to Finland tomorrow. I have 2 essays and 2 pieces of homework I need to get ready during next week. I hope I'll manage to get through them well. So stress is hitting me right now and I hope the weekend will clear all that and I'll come back after the weekend feeling good and inspired to study. Today has been a so called throw-away day but I guess you need some of those days too once in a while. Here's a dark dubstep tune to represent this day.
Peace Out!

This weekend

2009-12-01T20:38:00.004+02:00

So yeah this past weekend was pretty sweet too. On friday the day passed by sitting on our couch just playing PES with my roommate. As the evening went on we opened a few beers and kept playing til' around 11 o'clock. Then we finally decided that something needed to be done today. So we went to my roommates girlfriends apartment where some friends were hanging out and played board games. After that we headed to Krooks but because everybody wanted different things and there was a little drama too I decided to go and have some shisha at K's. That was also the place I woke up at like so often these recently.

But the morning was fun as K's roommate had a few friends over and we were chilling. Then all of the sudden the chimney sweeper ringed the doorbell. Nobody was expecting him but there he was. The guy was all dressed up and looked hung over as hell. The guys offered him some wine and beer which he gladly accepted. The whole situation was so absurd and funny. But he got the job done. Around 4pm I finally decided to walk home, grab my stuff and head to the bus-station. My friends Cstar and Olpek were performing at this place called Korter in Tallinn. I got to Tallinn around 7.30pm and met up with the guys and another friend who lives in Tallinn now. We soon headed to Korter where the guys were to have their soundcheck. Me and Tommi were just chilling along as entourage. The night went on and the other artists came to the venue as well. We kept on drinking free beer and chatting to the other dj's and artists who were really nice. I also remembered that I had my laptop with me and I pulled it out to play some tunes for the guys to freestyle to. B had forgotten her minispeaker at my place in the summer so I had it with me to give it back to her. The speaker hadn't been charged in 4 months but it still played with crystal clear sound for over 3 hours. That was really nice and it was nice to hear some freestyling from the guys too.

As the night went on it was time for the artists to go on stage and we headed to check them out. It was a bit different and interesting to see an artist perform when you've seen them and been talking to them backstage just a few minutes ago. Def Räädu was really good and energetic on stage and I really liked it. Then it was time for Beep (Cstar&Olpek). The crowd was pretty small at that time already which was a shame but Cstar put on a good show and Olpek dropped some mad dubplates that he had just cut the week before. The rest of the night passed with some junkfood at Hesburger with English bachelor party lads and other weird and even weirder people and then it was time to go to sleep at Tommi's place. I woke up at 3pm feeling pretty good and after some nice Chinese food with the guys I headed back to Tartu by train.

All in all the weekend was pretty cool. Not too crazy but crazy enough. Met some cool people, heard some good music and witnessed some weird situations. Peace Out!

Here's a another dubstep tune which has one of the best samples ever. Nice vibes!

1st of December and last weekend

2009-12-01T00:06:00.003+02:00

The clock just turned 00.05 and I realised that it's the 1st of December. This fall has gone by unbelievably fast. It's soon going to be christmas and I still feel like the semester just started. But on the other hand it's cool too. I'll get to go back to Finland for a while and chill with my family and friends. First I got to finish my exams and essays though and that is going to be a drag. But enough about that. These past weeks had some stuff I want to write down.

Last weekend I played music at a birthday party that these two girls were having. I played pretty shitty because I had left my headphones at at a breakfast I went to the week before. But the party was ok, the beer was free and after the party we continued the night by going clubbing. The drinks kept flowing and after Club Tallinn and Zavood I finally ended up having some deep conversations in front of the Pepleri Dorm with E. It was nice though. I was pretty wasted but it's always nice to make the world a better place with a good friend. So after at least an hour of conversation I decided I don't have the energy to go home eventhough it was just like 500 metres.
The next day I woke up around 5pm and it was dark outside. I slept in E's roommates bed and the first thought that came to my mind was that is it morning or evening? It ended up being evening and I woke up and took my ass home. The rest of the evening passed like most of the sundays recently, on K's couch.

I don't really have the energy yet to write about the weekend that just ended but I'll try to write something down tomorrow. So peace out and here's a tune that B just linked to me and it is MASSIVE! I'm thinking about doing a chillout dubstep mix before christmas but we'll see how that will work out.

Tings mad again!!!

2009-11-18T21:19:00.005+02:00

This past weekend was sick. Friday was a regular party with chillin, Krooks and other bars but it was saturday that was crazy. I was playing the afterparty of this annual party for finnish medicine students association members. The afterparty was really nice and people danced the whole night and I got to play some sick tracks from Major Lazer to some nice ska tunes. Drinks and food were on the house for me so it was sweet.

After the afterparty we headed to Dorpat Hotel by the river to the 14th floor where there was a pool and two saunas and a lot of people. Everybody were feeling good. The sauna and the pool were supersweet and I wont even mention the view from the 14th floor. The drinks kept flowing and finally around 8am or something like that we headed for a free breakfast which was being served in the Tampere-house near the university. Some people had been sleeping at home for a few hours but we kept on going til the breakfast and we were pretty mashed at that point. I also found that my phone was lost. Luckily someone who was living in Hotel London had it in their room. So we went to get it after the breakfast and around that time I was still really mashed and so was T who was with me. So finally around 10.30am I crashed K's place just to wake up at 2pm to a phone call that my landlord is waiting outside my door because I was supposed to show our apartment to some potential buyers. It was pretty terrible. The rest of the day passed on K's couch feeling super hungover and the hangover still continued on monday.

All in all I had a super good time. I got to play music. People liked the music and danced. The drinks and food were free. I met a lot of friends and new people. The sauna and pool were awesome.The breakfast was delicious and K's bed was soft. A really nice night to remember and to be greatful for. Big up to everyone who I met that night and who had the energy to have a good time. Give thanks!!!

Haha so much for the hype. I'm just happy to be where I am right now and thankful for all the people around me. To finish this post I'll post a track that I love and which got a really good reaction on the dancefloor on Saturday and another one that I really liked a few years back . Peace Out!

Major Lazer feat. Ricky Blaze & Nina Sky - Keep It Goin' Louder (So Shifty 1961 Ska Remix) by So Shifty

Life

2009-11-11T23:46:00.003+02:00

Havent written anything down for a while. It's hard to find reasons for this because I've had a lot to remember and now those thoughts and experiences will not be completely written down. But it doesn't matter, I'm writing now.

This past weekend I hosted my first couchsurfers which was really fun. They were really cool and I think I showed them a good time in Tartu. My roommate was really drunk the whole weekend which made things funnier with afterparties at our place til 6 o'clock in the morning and conversations and jokes about so random stuff. But they seemed to have a good time and now I might have a place to stay if I ever visit the French alps.

Otherwise I've been mostly chillin with K and I think I can call her my girlfriend now. It's funny. I'm not used to it but I'm really happy that I've found a great girl to be with. So life is good, school could be better and the cold dark november isn't my best friend either but I'm not in the mood to complain right now. So Peace Out and here's a nice tune if youre feeling a bit down !

Poetry

2009-10-21T01:15:00.002+03:00

I've never really gotten into poetry that much. Probably because we never really discussed poetry that deeply in school. This last week K told me about some poets she liked. None of them rang a bell so I felt a bit stupid. It's not that I don't like poetry, I just haven't read it. There's something in poetry that novels can't grasp. Something that brings out so much with so little. That is interesting to me. One form of poetry has influenced me alot and that is rap or the hip-hop culture as a whole. I like poetry about social issues, about love and about feelings not that much about nature and the way things are on the outside. So this thought chain brought back a memory of how I once saw this clip about a show where Hip-Hop/Rnb/Soul artists would come out and read their poems and lyrics without the music in the back to really bring out the true meaning of the lyric. So I searched it up and here are some of my favorite poems from Def Jam Poetry.

I love Common.He's by far my all-time favorite rapper. He's got a great voice and even better lyrics. I especially like the ending.

The next one is Buju Banton. A rastaman and a great musician.

This one is from Lauryn hill. I really like her and her lyrics. This one is maybe my favorite of these poems here.

This one I just found but I like it. Good words about gang violence.

Emo mondays and tuesdays

2009-10-21T00:13:00.003+03:00

Last week was pretty chaotic. From monday to sunday everything went really fast and I spent five of the seven days going out doing something at night. I had a lot of fun and I did all the obligatory school work I was supposed to do but as you might guess I still pretty tired.

On saturday we went to Tallinn with a bunch of finnish friends from Tartu and we were supposed to go and see Dub Fx live at Korter. This plan went to shit as we got to the front of the club and noticed a huge line in to the club. After ten minutes of waiting we decided to skip it. Soon after that we took a cab to this squat/club Polymer and found out that there was a semi-private birthday for these 3 guys. We decided to pay ourselves in and headed for the bar. The party was pretty decently crowded. There were some really young people there but also a bit older people so it was a good mix. A lot of really dressed-up hipsters trying to look they best which is always really funny. We had a blast dancing to some Tectonicky music and later to some Hip-Hop. Finally around 3am we headed back to B's place to crash. The next thing I know I wake up at B's couch with a killer hangover while everyone else were already up. We soon hit the road back to Tartu and the rest of the day passed at K's house just laying around and trying to feel better.

As the new week started I was feeling pretty shitty. Somewhere around the day my mom messaged me that I've gotten mail from the civil service department which I need to go and pick up personally. That also means that I need to quickly send in my postponement papers because if they don't process my postponement papers before february when I'm supposed to start, I need to go back and live in Finland. And that is something that I'm not really keen on doing right now. So this got me panicing a bit and as I hadn't read that much for mondays test in school I started feeling a bit depressed.

That's pretty much the only thing that bothers me right now. I don't even know why I feel this shitty right now. I guess it's ok to get that little autumn depression but it feels so pointless. If you look at things from another perspective everything is actually pretty well. I've got a girl who I like and who seemes to like me, I get to go and chill with my family and friends in Finland for the weekend and even school is going decently well. So I hope these two emo days well be the last this autumn and I'll stop this whining.

I have to post this tune because it has been playing in my head for like 5 days now and I just can't get enough of it. I'm going to post the one with the radio dj's comments because I love her voice and acsent. Massive tune anyways! Peace Out!

Bonkers

2009-10-16T19:12:00.003+03:00

Gotta let those deep thoughts wait some more because I've been pretty busy this whole week and the weekend is going to be massive too. Yesterday was neljapäev with lazers vs Check One Two and they killed it. Got my rave mode on eventhough I was a bit tired. Madd tunes from Estonian classics remixed in Bmore style to Baile Funk and Major Lazer. Today is another party. This time some housewarming and then some reggae/african/bhangra vibes at a club. Tomorrow Dub Fx in Tallinn so shit is off the hook.

Here's a tune that I used to hate but yesterday it totally mashed my brain on the dancefloor.

"A heavy bassline is my kind of silence"

R. Kelly & Keri Hilson - Number One (So Shifty Funky Remix)

2009-10-06T23:02:00.004+03:00

Before getting into those deep thoughts I just have to post this video. The tune is MASSIVE!!!
I loved it from the first moment I heard it and why wouldn't you when you got the man Kells on it not to mention the beautiful Keri Hilson. So enjoy the sweet tropical r'nb vibe!

saturday+sunday

2009-10-05T01:36:00.003+03:00

I've been thinking the whole day that I should write something today but right now my mind is pretty empty. My fucked up sleeping rhythm doesn't let me sleep yet so I'll just wing it. I woke up yesterday morning to a beautiful day. The sun was shining and I didn't have a hangover. I was tired but the weather was really nice so I decided to go out for a walk with the girl who I've mentioned before (I'll call her K). The weather was sweet and everything was really nice. I don't really go out on walks that much by myself. I should though. But as there was good company I gladly went. After this I got my haircut and then my parents finally arrived. It was nice to see them and show them my apartment which I had completely cleaned the day before. After shopping and dining we headed to my relatives house which they had finally gotten ready and it was nice. I mean the apartment was almost perfect with 40 squaremetre terraces and loft-like spaces near the sealing where you can chill out. But it was also nice to hangout with my relatives because I do that pretty rarely.

After all this I went back home for a few minutes and then we left for PlinkPlonk to check out this Estonian rock band called Dramamama. They were actually really good and I enjoyed listening to live rock music as I haven't been on any rock gigs for a long time. The rest of the night passed with trying to calm down drunken people and support crying girls with their problems. I don't really know if I was any help as I myself have been through quite little. My life has been pretty smooth sailing so I don't really have experiences dealing with these kinds of problems. So as I walked home my mind was full of pretty deep thoughts and I'll try and make some sense of those thoughts in the next post as this one came out as just stating what I've been up to the past days. Peace Out!

Here's tune that's been playing in my head for a while now. I really like it. I don't like the official music video so I'll post this one. Also check out the Fred Falke remix of the song. Bangin.

Mellow fridays

2009-10-03T02:28:00.003+03:00

Chillin at home on a friday night is not something that has been usual for me the past 6 weeks but tonight it actually feels pretty good. The past two days I've been committed to playing music at the two different parties I mentioned in the last post. Finding stuff from your hard-drive, buying tunes and putting together a set of six hours takes about 115 tunes. Multiply that with two and you'll get 12 hours of time behind the turntables. That's why I didn't really have the energy to go out tonight. The other reason is that my parents are coming to Tartu tomorrow and I'm getting a haircut at 12pm tomorrow.

I feel good though. The parties went well, I had a good time playing, I got good feedback and all in all both of the nights can be considered a success. It was funny how on both of the parties I had 30minx2 of time when I felt I was playing badly. The first one came around 1,5 hours into the night and the other one around 5 hours into the night. I don't know if anyone else noticed this but during this time I wasn't happy with my mixing. On the other hand it's natural too as I didn't have any kind of setlist prepared ( that would be impossible in a 6 hour set) and if you have around 2-3 minutes of time deciding what your going to play next, your bound to make a couple of not so good choices. But why complain about little things. My dj'ing skills are what they are and only time and practice can make them better. As long as people are dancing and my mixing is somewhat decent, I'm happy. And the feedback was mostly good too. Even people who I didn't know (not only girls) came up to show their positive feelings about the music and the mixing.

Yesterday was also nice because of all the people. The party had a bit over 1000 visitors and I must have greeted around 100 friends/acquaintances that came to say hi. And I heard that some people I know were at the party but didn't make it to the second floor. Last autumn I was a bit nervous about leaving all my friends in Finland and wondered what my new social network would look like this autumn. I must say that I'm really happy about how things worked out. I've met a lot of good people, I have gotten really nice friends and that's something that we sometimes might take for granted. So thanks to all the people who came out and big ups to those too who didn't make it. Here's a song that I played yesterday about this very same theme. Peace Out!

P.S God I'd like a pair of Technics SL-1210's!

Winter, Spring,Summer and Fall

2009-09-28T22:22:00.004+03:00

I haven't posted anything in a week now because I've had a lot on my mind but not the words in which to write them up. There's quite a lot going on this week. I'm playing at two clubs which means that I've been busy putting some sort of set together. I'm a bit nervous too as the gig on thursday is in one of Estonias biggest clubs. I'm playing in the smaller room of the club but it's still a bit nervracking as it is a big club with about 600 guests. The good thing about playing in the smaller room is that I'll get to play a bit more alternative stuff like dancehall, soca and such but still keep it mainstream enough to get people to enjoy themselves. It's a good feeling when you drop a tune that you've been jamming to for some time by yourself and suddenly you have a lot of people dancing to it. To give you an example I'd mention Alison Hind's Roll It Gal and Scottie B's remix of Paper Planes which have worked so nicely on people who have never heard them before and they've gone nuts on them. I hope that the parties will be a blast. It feels stupid to be nervous and worry about things but it's natural and it's just like the song that I'll post here later says: "worrying is as
effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum."

The weekend is going to be interesting too as my parents and my sister are coming to Tartu. I haven't seen them in almost 6 weeks now so it's going to be nice. It will also mean that I might take things a bit easier and just chill out over the weekend which hasn't been the case during the past 6 weeks. I'll get my watch back too.

Otherwise life is interesting too. I've been seeing this nice girl, met some nice people,found some good tunes and school is also going pretty well at the moment so life is good. The only shitty thing is that it's getting cold and dark. That's it, Peace Out!

P.S Here's a tune which has become a definite must if I want to feel better about anything. Great philosophical words to live you're life by. Too nice.

Raving On Beaches Vol.2

2009-09-17T20:32:00.004+03:00

Got the second edition of Raving on Beaches mix finally done. A bit more African and Caribbean vibes this time but still including other stuff too. So check it out and tell me what you think. Peace!

http://soundcloud.com/masu/raving-on-beaches-vol-2

Tracklist:
1.Toy Selectah - BKLYN Raverton Break
2.Reneissance Man - Canto Della Calimba
3.Rainbow Arabia - Holidays In Congo (Myd Remix)
4.Busy Signal - Da Style Deh (Douster Dagga Remix)
5.Douster - King Of Africa
6.Major Lazer - Pon De Floor ft.Vybz Kartel
7.Esau Mwamwaya & Radioclit - Wena
8.Scottie B & King Tutt - African Chant (Top Billin Remix)
9.Rico Tubbs - Boom Riddim (Sharkslayer Remix)
10.Dj Anonymous & Top Billin - Money To Burn
11.Gangstarr - Full Clip (Grandtheft Remix)
12.Hostage - I Get High
13.The Fire And Reason - Preste Atencao (Blood Shake Fuck Baile Funk Remix)
14.Shystie - Pull It (Reese B Remix)
15.Rubi Dan & Heatwave - Walk & Wine
16.Hostage - Rudeboys
17. Mavado - So Blessed (De Tropix Remix)
18.Bunji Garlin - No Superhero
19. Leftside & Esco - Till Sunlight
20.Destra - I Dare You
21.Patrice Roberts - Wuk It
22.Machel Montano - Slow Wine

Random

2009-09-13T05:23:00.003+03:00

Once again time for a 5.30am post where I recap the day. Right now two nice people are singing along some beautiful estonian tunes in our livingroom, a basketball player from Estonias best basketball club has passed out on our couch and I'm feeling sick. Not because of the things I just mentioned but because I have a fever.The day was pretty random like always. Waking up, watching TV, drinking beer, meeting people and playing playstation. I'm kinda bummed out about feeling ill because the night had good potential and the people in the livingroom singing have a really positive vibe going. But you can't always get what you want. Positive and negative go hand and hand so sometimes you have to take the negative. I also wish I had a sleeping rhythm as I'm not drunk and I'm still up at this time. My roommate just walked into my room and performed an air guitar solo. So yeah this night had a lot of really nice things, some bad things and some things missing. I hope I feel better in the morning. This post came out pretty shitty but I don't have the energy to put my thoughts into a more organized mode so this will do.

Random Fridays

2009-09-12T04:40:00.004+03:00

I just got home. It's 4.45am. Tonight was pretty much the vet.student's freshman party and the once again Zavood. The party wasn't the greatest but it was ok. Zavood was basic and I didn't really have the energy to do that much. Saw a lot of friends, talked some bullshit and had some beer. The theme of the day was people. Everyone started calling me around 9pm and wanted me to come somewhere or meet up later. As if this wasn't enough, some people from the party wanted me to go to a afterparty. I took my turntables and stuff home and then it was already 2.30am so some of the people who I was supposed to meet up with had already gone home or were just about to do so. In a way this was good because I don't think I could have dealt with it all today. To sum the night up I'd say an ok party, too many pretty girls, too little time and too complicated thinking. Now I'll try to get some sleep while this girl who passed out is snoring beside me. I had to write this down to tease you :P Peace out!

P.S Just got another call so maybe I'll head back out instead, I don't know this night is so random but at least these noodles are good.

last nights party

2009-09-11T17:31:00.004+03:00

Its 5.30pm and I've been sitting on this couch pretty much the whole day. I got home around 6.30am yesterday after walking through the whole city and going swimming. Oh yeah, before that I was in Zavood and before that dj'ing at a freshman party for medical students. A pretty action packed night I'd say but it was fun. The freshman party was nice, I got to play some nice ravey tunes and the freshmen seemed pretty psyched. I also got a case of beer as payment and I felt really good when I got home after the party. So as I was feeling good I headed to Zavood, met some girls on the way who I knew and we walked to Zavood. The funny thing was that when I introduced myself to this girl who I had not met, she responded I've heard so much about you, can I hug you? Pretty weird but it was fun. So finally around 4am I left Zavood with this unstable girl who I mentioned in earlier posts after my roommate had left with this girl I know. It kinda came out of the blue as I didn't really expect them to hook up but I guess you can't foresee everything in life. Anyways after walking around Toomemägi we finally ended up on Annekanal beach and as the idiot I am, I decided to go for a swim. The water was actually surprisingly warm and pleasant.So after a pretty wet walk home, some mashed potatoes and milk, I finally hit the bed and naturally I couldn't make it to my only lecture of the day. Now I'm on this couch and in 2 hours the freshman party for vet.students is beginning. I'm dj'ing so it's going to be a fun night again and we'll see where I end up today. Peace out and here's a tune which drove the crowd pretty wild yesterday.

	DJPaulV. www.thesmashmix.com - Yo Majesty vs. Depeche Mode Just Can't Get Club Action

	Found at bee mp3 search engine

Direction?

2009-09-06T01:55:00.003+03:00

A tattooed young woman in the lotus position with eyes that seem to see right through you. That's what I'm looking at right now. It's a painting on my wall which I never knew existed before yesterday. I'd like to have that same kind of clarity which the painting depicts. This past week has been full of all kinds of things. I've met a lot of new people and went through lots of different situations and feelings and all these things have kind of gotten me to the situation where I feel that I should just cool down for a couple days and get everything sorted. I don't really see this happening though as I need to study and find music for fridays party and do lots of other things. Or maybe that's just the thing I need. Something to keep me in routine.

Next weekend is going to be interesting too as lots of different people will be coming to Tartu and I can already see it being quite chaotic. But I guess that's just life and trying to form something solid from chaos is one of the hardest parts of it. This estonian hip-hop song called "Mida Sa Tahad" pretty much describes my thoughts right now. Hopefully things will clear up during the next week and I'll enter the weekend feeling good about myself and everything else around me. I guess that's it. My mind is pretty empty right now so I'll finish this post short. Peace Out!

Wife, kids and East Timor

2009-09-05T13:13:00.002+03:00

Another morning in the life of a student. As I mentioned in the last post, things went a bit badly on thursday. Yesterday was pretty depressing and after a long day of sleeping and chilling we headed to Trehv for some reggae and dancehall music. The party was a bit dissapointing as all genres were mixed randomly and no good dancehall was really played. A couple af good Sizzlas but no Mavado :(

So after Trehv closed I headed to Krooks to meet some people. The place was absolutely packed and I was feeling pretty tired but the people convinced me to go with them to Zavood. I guess there's nothing to tell about Zavood. The basic drinking and talking shit. Then I started talking to the girl who on thursday poured her aggressions out on me. My roommate had talked to her earlier in the morning and he and another girl had come up with the idea that me and this girl would be an item and should get married in a month. The whole thing was pretty weird and as it happened we started to plan our wedding, the names of our kids and decided that we would move to East Timor. As Zavood was closing we headed back to our apartment and after cooking some couscous with vegetables the rest of the night passed with a nice conversation and finally somewhere around 8.30am we fell asleep. So to sum up the night I'd say that it was very random, very weird but on the otherhand very nice and funny. So tomorrow I should be going to East Timor with my new wife and settle down somewhere by the beach. Bring some kids to this world and live happily ever after ;D Peace Out and check the tune below. Madd!!!

Last nights party, great success??

2009-09-04T13:28:00.003+03:00

Another morning, another hangover and another rainy day. I'm feeling really weird today. Yesterday was fun. We started the night off with playing PES with my roommate and slowly people started arriving to our place. Drinking wine and meeting new people lead to the point where our apartment was full of people, the music was blasting and the windows were open because of the heat. The next thing I know the police are at our door and I'm being invited to their car. I speak with them in a polite manner and they give me a warning for disturbing the peace. I was surprisingly cool about the whole thing and we decided to head out to Zavood. The time was at this point around 2.30am and the walk to Zavood took at least 30minutes.

The walk was fun too as I spoke with this nice girl who decided to release all her aggressions. She just poured it all out about how Estonian men are usually lame and all other things. It was cool to listen to her and also funny to hear what she thought about me. The first impression had been that I'm a skater dude which is of course true. Then she had seen my turntables and thought "ok this guy seems ok" and finally after I had played some music she had thought of me as pretty ok. People with strong opinions who openly admit to being a bit unstable are always cool.

We got to Zavood and at that point I was already pretty tired. We had some beer with people, spoke some shit and around 4.30am started heading back home. A friend pushed over our neighbours big flower pot by their door, which I had two days earlier also pushed over. It was a mess and I feel really shitty about it. I guess I should go over and apologize to both the neighbour that called the police and the neighbour who's flowerpot got pushed over. So now I woke up, I have a hangover, it's raining and our neighbours are probably pissed. Everything you'd want from a friday morning. Hopefully things cool down and mistakes will be forgiven. The too late to apologize song would be appropriate now I guess but I won't post it. Instead I'll post my favorite reggae track at the moment. Nice vibes from Jovi and Vegas by Major Lazer. Peace Out!

Weekend warrior

2009-08-28T13:36:00.003+03:00

Another friday and once again time to meet people, enjoy music,enjoy life and act stupid. It's the last weekend before the new semester so everyone wants to take every bit of joy out of it. Today I'm heading to the Estonian capital of Tallinn. The plan is to pre-party at an empty apartment and then go to the Estonia Hip-Hop Festival official afterparty. So basically it is going to be a urban continuation of last weekends festival. It's going to be cool to see all the people again and I think Tallinn is going to surprise me again too. I just have that feeling because I haven't spent any time in Tallinn lately.
Tomorrow good friend of mine is coming to Tallinn and we will head to Tartu in the afternoon probably. The funny thing was that he just messaged to me one day that he's sick of Finland and that maybe he could crash at our place for a couple of weeks. That was of course fine by me so it's going to be interesting to see what will happen during the next two weeks.

All in all I'm feeling pretty good right now. I have parties to look forward to, good people to chill out with, my friends are coming over to Tartu, the new semester is beginning so everything is quite fine. It's funny how these mindstates trigger themselves. I got a very drunken phonecall last night. Eventhought the phonecall had no real content it still cheered me up for some reason. So yeah another weekend and another semester here I come! Peace!

Fever Ray

2009-08-26T00:06:00.004+03:00

I just stumbled on some news about a new single from Fever Ray and I remembered that I haven't even heard anything from Fever Ray yet. I remember back in the days when I found The Knife and it was something completely new to me. Kino and Heartbeats have been long time favorites and now I finally took up the new solo project from Karin Djeijer Andersson. I kinda regret not going to her consert in Flow Festival but on the otherhand I was nothing near the mindstate I should have been for that gig. Anyways this video and song are absolutely sick and I've played it for about 5 times on repeat now and it just keeps getting better.

Time

2009-08-25T22:23:00.003+03:00

I broke my watch last week and since then I've naturally been without one. It feels weird when something that is in you daily routines, even if you don't notice it, is suddenly gone or an effort has to be made in order to get the same result. A small thing like being without you watch changes your daily life and perspective competely. Or maybe it's just me I don't know. A girl I know comforted me in this agony of being without a watch and she told me not to worry about it and that time is not that important at the end of the day. "I don't have time" she said and it made perfect sense. So now I'm confronted with a choice. Should I go back to wearing my watch when I get it back from the shop or should I not. I haven't made my choice yet but being timeless doesn't seem like such a bad idea after all.

TIME = CHAINS

Peace Out!

The button that will be pushed

2009-08-19T00:45:00.003+03:00

So it's tuesday night and tomorrow will be the last day of my summer here in Finland. I'll still have 2 weeks of holiday before the new semester. I'm feeling weird again because it's like someone pressed pause in my life 2 months ago and put me into another world and now the play button is one that will be pressed. On the otherhand I'm waiting for the new semester and parties and people and things but still I feel a bit stressed out.

Tomorrow I'll pack my backpack and start another 4 month trip to my other life. The weekend should be interesting as I'm going to Estonia Hip-Hop Festival. I don't have a tent to sleep in yet and I'm not entirely sure who will even be coming but it should be fun. I should try and and reach a more positive and open vibe during the next days. Maybe the past few days have brought me down a bit because it has been raining a lot and I've been really tired after Flow. Right now reggae music is keeping my vibes up high and I hope these vibes shall continue. I'm listening to the live recording from reggae sundays from the beginning of August with Supersonic Sound. Sweet sweet vibes like always. Here's a nice tune from Sizzla
Peace Out!

Flow and tings

2009-08-19T00:27:00.003+03:00

Once again a long pause between posts but I'll continue where left off. All the needs of my last post except for the girl have pretty much been fulfilled. I had a killer hitchhiking trip to Latvia, I've attended reggae parties, bbq parties, had sallads and wine.This weekend I attended Flow Festival in Helsinki. I had a killer time and I won't start writing a full report on everything that happened but all in all things were nice and the gigs were nice. Lily was straight up <3 and Reggae Sundays once again reminded me why I love reggae music so much. Eventhough my feet were hurting like hell I couln't stay away from the dancefloor. My sassa step was pretty tacky but it's on the works :D Peace Out!

P.S I'll try to start writing more and maybe a bit shorter posts. Oh yeah and a tune that's been playing in my mind and in my stereos on full volume the last days. Massive tune!

Needs

2009-07-10T13:14:00.003+03:00

I feel like I'd need some more content for this summer. I need adventure, I need to travel, I need a girl, I need a live reggae show, I need the beach, I need a bottle of white wine, I need some fresh sallad, I need a music festival, I need a bbq party, I need to go skateboarding. I guess I'll start today off with skateboarding and hopefully the rest will follow.

On modern music trends pt.3 New Sounds:Cumbia

2009-07-09T14:22:00.002+03:00

This is my newest love. Cumbia. It started about 200 years ago in Columbia and nowadays it's come back with a blast. Cumbia Nuevo is the modern cumbia which combines classic cumbia rhythms with modern sounds to create something new. Cumbia has traditionally been the music of poor people like so many of the new sounds hitting the western club scene. It's currenly still pretty underground with most of the music on bootleg markets. The internet has of course spread it around the world but officcial releases are to my information pretty rare.

My favorite Cumbia producer/DJ is Toy Selectah who represents Mad Decent and he is the dude who got me into Cumbia. I heard his track called Hay Gaye and instantly found myself listening to it on repeat. I can't really tell you much more about this sound because I'm pretty new to it myself. So far Toy Selectah, Uproot Andy and Sonidero Nacional have been my favorite artists but I have a lot more ground to cover in this genre. If I spoke Spanish it would help a lot but so far I'm mostly stuck to the western Cumbia market. Also check out the lacongona blog and a Dj Rupture interview where he tells a bit about the music and the scene.

And here's some classic and modern cumbia for you

Where The Fuck Is This Thing Going To?

2009-07-09T11:50:00.002+03:00

I've been home for 4 days now and I've watched some TV,read some newspapers and of course been on the internet. This is of course no big deal but what I've come across during these days is fucking frightening.

This all started the minute I got home and put on the TV. The first show that came on was a show about pedophiles and in the show they set up traps for these pedophiles to fall into like setting them up with young girls and then busting them. I don't see nothing wrong about pedophiles getting cought but making a show about it is quite sickening to me. I can't understand why anyone would watch the show, it made me feel sick and wonder about how fucked up the media is.

The next thing I saw was a Columbian telenovela which I stumbled on while channel surfing. The show is about a girl who is quite poor and wants to be rich. All of her female friends have become hookers for drug dealers and gotten silicones and all her male friends have become criminals and drug dealers. So as she wants to be rich she looks up to them and her ultimate dream is to get silicones and the show pretty much follows her way to becoming a hooker.

Yesterday I stayed up late and just before turning the TV off I channel surfed to Finlands most popular TV channel. The night chat was on, nothing special. But what cought my attention was that the host was a tranny. Once again a WTF experience.

And finally today I was surfing the internet and saw a picture of the most annoying pop star at the moment, Lady Gaga. Her wanting to be the biggest freak of all, while making pop tunes for little kids at the same time makes me sick. I'm 19 and I can put these things I just listed into perspective but for little kids this shit must be confusing as hell.

I don't like pedos, I have nothing against telenovelas, trannys and pop stars in general but I do think that these things I listed give a bad influence to kids. if kids channel surf from tranny hosts to telenovelas of becoming a hooker/drug dealer to pedo shows and finally ending up listening to Lady Gaga's catchy pop tunes and looking up to her fucked up style, think something might go badly wrong with these kids. I don't consider myself to be a conservative person but this shit has gone too far in my opinion.

Til' The Sun Come Up

2009-07-01T15:20:00.002+03:00

I just have to post this new summerish rap tune here because It's been really warm and sunny the past days and I've been listening to this tune quite a lot. Pretty laid back tune with a simple message and a laid back video. Birdman's verse is probably the lamest ever but it fits the laid back mood and T-Pain teaches the kids all the weekdays on the chorus. Who said rap was bad for kids?

Glasses Malone ft. Birdman, Rick Ross & T-Pain "Sun Come Up" from KB on Vimeo.

Another day on public transport

2009-07-01T15:17:00.000+03:00

I just left Tartu and I’m spending the next 4 hours of my life on public transport again, this time the destination being Orissaare where my parents are going to pick me up and we’ll go to oue summer cottage. The vibe this morning is a bit strange and I’m feeling quite tired. Maybe it’s because I’ve been spending a lot of time on public transport recently going back and forth between Estonia and Finland. A thing that made my morning though happened at the bus station. Nothing bug but there was this little kid waiting for a bus and at the same time listening to 2pac on his mobile phone. That really brightened up my mood. I’ve been listening to some nice g-funk era hip-hop recently so I felt an urge to share some nice tunes with him but I didn’t because I felt that would have been too weird and he would probably not have any clue what I was talking about.
But anyways I felt a bit sad leaving Tartu again as I won’t go back there before the end of August probably. But that’s life and I feel glad to spend Time in Saaremaa for a bit because last summer I didn’t get a chance to go there. It will be nice to see all my close relatives and hopefully the sun will come out too so I’d get a tan and maybe even go fishing or swimming. I’m a bit worried about my diet though. I don’t know how easy it will be to stay on a vegetarian diet over there because I’m not buying my own food over there and even if I was it would be hard to get some good vegetarian stuff from the small shop overthere. So that’s my only concern right now and it would feel stupid to eat meat but I got to get my proteins and vitamines and all that other stuff in order to stay healthy so I guess it’s better to eat meat or chicken than get sick or anemic. I guess this all depends on my parents attitude when I go there. It might be that they are willing to obey my diet and are prepared to do so or then they might be on the ”you eat what’s put in front of you” mentality. I guess time will tell and I guess it won’t be the end of the world if I eat something against my beliefs. At least the cattle in Saaremaa has plenty of room to chill out and they stay mostly outside so that’s good. But enough about that, I’m starting to sound like a carnivore already. Summer has officcially started for me now and Im going to enjoy it to the fullest. Hammock here I come! Peace Out!
P.S wrote this on the bus but because there was no internet connection I’m posting it now and btw I’ve kept my diet so I’m all good :D

Harbour thoughts

2009-07-01T15:15:00.002+03:00

I’m sitting in the port of Helsinki again, waiting for a boat to Tallinn. It’s a million degrees outside and it’s beautiful as hell in Helsinki. As I walked through the city a few minutes ago I felt like just staying at the park near the port and call up some friends and chill for the evening but unfortunately thats not a possibility today.
I need to get to Tartu before morning to do my exam tomorrow. I’ll probably fail as I haven’t really read for it and I’ve been running on summer mode. After tomorrow I have no plans whatsoever. Well actually there are many but I have no idea which of those will come to life. The most likely plan right now is to go to our summer cottage and chill for a while and then go visit the Estonian Song Festival next week. The other plan is to go abroad with a friend but right now that seems quite unlikely although it would be really nice to go somewhere far away. The third plan would be to come back to Finland and chill out with friends but I think I won’t do that as I really would like to go to our summer cottage. I hope I’ll also see some friends in Tartu this weekend although it seems like everybody have left Tartu already.
I’m kind of torn between all these places right now. I’d like to be at home here in Finland with friends, I’d like to be in Helsinki as it so beautiful and I’d like to be in Estonia and meet friends and wonder around and I’d also like to go abroad.
I guess time will tell but one thing is for sure. After tomorrow I’m going to go on full summer mode and forget about all stress and chill out for an entire month before going to work.
This post came out pretty lame but I dont’s have the energy or the will power to come up with anything more interesting right now. Peace Out!

P.S I wrote this in the port but because there was no internet connection I'm posting it now.

Midsummer

2009-06-20T21:55:00.003+03:00

Im sitting on a boat right now. It’s 9:50am and I’ve been up for almost three hours now. I feel sick and hung over but otherwise things are well. Last night was the traditional celebration of midsummer in Finland which was really nice.
I woke up yesterday to the sound of my phone ringing. It was my friend who told me that he was coming over in a minute. I woke up, took a quick shower, fed the cats and the fish, packed my bag for today’s trip and then we left. We spent the rest of the morning and afternoon at my friends house playing games and watching TV. In the evening my friends girlfriend had cooked us a wonderful dinner. The food was great, the people were great and the only thing that was wrong was the weather but that didn’t bother me that much.

After wining and dining for some while we decided to go and visit some other friends to Fiskars. They had a nice party going on and I ended up staying there for quite a while. We also went to the local summerdance place which was this small stagelike thing where people of the village had prepared food and were also wining, dining and dancing. There was a fireplace which people were sitting around and the vibe as a whole was really nice. I’ve never really spent a traditional midsummer in Finland and this party in Fiskars was definately traditional and I enjoyed it to the fullest. But the traditionality of the party soon ended as suddenly the music changed from classical finnish folk songs to De La Soul’s ”All Good” with Chaka Kahn. As you might guess we went crazy over it and headed straight to the dancefloor. After a few tunes my friend called me and said that they were about to go to sleep so if I wanted a place to stay for the night I should get my ass back to Karjaa. So a few minutes after that we were already in my other friends car and heading back to Karjaa.

I was a bit dissapointed to be honest. I really liked the vibes in Fiskars and it was fun to hang around with lots of friends and enjoy the midsummer. The time was only a bit past midnight so it seemed weird to me that the youngest people in the party were going back home to sleep first. To me that represents a trend that I’ve seen recently with some friends. As people are working and kinda settling down it seemes like they tend to become more boring. I don’t know why that is but I’ve gotten the feeling of people trying to play happy home already at 20 years of age. To me that seems ridiculous. I’m a student, I’m young and I know that the following 5 years of my life are probably going to be the best of my life so why not enjoy them to the fullest. I want to sleep in random places, stay up until the sun comes up and meet and have fun with new people. Going to sleep early, not coming to some parties because you don’t know the people there well, is like turning down fun and new experiences.
Maybe this chapter of the text seems a bit harsh and cruel and by no means do I want to offend some of my good friends. Maybe my thirst for new experiences and things that I like seem stupid to other people and are not something that they do not cherish and that is completely their right. But of course when Im having a good time I want to share that fun with my good friends and have them also experience new things. That’s why it makes me sad when people go to sleep early. Someday my youthful days are going to be over to and then I’m going to complete the promise that I made to myself yesterday when leaving Fiskars that one day when I retire I'm going to buy a house in the beautiful village of Fiskars.

As I’ve been in Finland for over a week now and now I’m going back to Estonia for a day and then coming back again for a few days and then heading back to Tartu again, this tune has been playing on my ipod pretty much lately. I love Katie Melua and the song is pretty much as perfect as she is. Definite wife material and something beautiful to listen to. Enjoy! Peace Out!

Surreal Summer

2009-06-18T23:46:00.002+03:00

Right now I'm just chillin in our livingroom watching the Jimmy Kimmel show. Today has been all about chillin with friends. Eventhough the summer is in full speed, it seems that everybody is running along with the office hours. Anyways I've been at home in Finland for a week now and it still feels weird. I feel like I'm just on vacation from my real life and everything is pretty surreal. I still have my exam in a week and reading for it hasn't really been going that well. I like living in the now but I think I'm going to regret it later as my exam will go pretty badly.

But summer is finally here and eventhough it is cold as hell outside things are well. Last weekend I went to a housewarming party that was hosted by two friends of mine who decided to buy an apartment for themselves. There were a lot of friends there and it was really nice to see everyone and have that collective friendship feeling. As I've been away partly for almost a whole year, I sometimes forget how nice it is to have lots of friends. Especially when everybody have gathered under one roof you get that great feeling of friendship. This feeling really came upon me as people were singing at the housewarming party and the host couple had their speeches. The rest of the night went pretty normally with drinking and a bar on the agenda. I ended up going to Olpeks studio/apartment for the after party and after the guys had recorded some sick vocals on Olpeks productions I ended up sleeping on the floor. I woke up in the morning feeling pretty hung over and shitty. Luckily my mom called me and said that she was going to come and pick up my lil' sister from Karjaa train station which meant that I could get a lift home.

The housewarming party was the high point of the weekend although the next day we went to the Fiskars Folk Festival. Unfortunately just before Simon & The Cold Collective band were about to come on stage, it started to rain heavily. This was really unfortunate as they couldn't even go on stage because the rain was so hard. I've never heard those guys play together and if you have 4 friends playing together of which one is a producer/dj, one mc, one guitarrist in a electro duo and one sound expert playing bass, you really want to hear what they've come up with. But that performance will have to wait for a better time.

Luckily there are some good things coming up soon. Tomorrow is the celebration of midsummer in Finland. Were just going to have a quiet night with some friends, good food and good wine so that's going to be nice. On saturday I'm going to Tallinn for my relative's high school graduation and finally on sunday is the grande finale of the weekend. Busy Signal at Redrum. I've waited a long time for this and it is going to be huge. One of my favorite dancehall artists during the last years is coming to the relatively small club of Redrum. I just can't hype it enough so I'm just going to post a busy song here and leave it to that. Hotteddd!!!, BUSY!!!!

I Love College

2009-06-10T21:32:00.004+03:00

I just have to post this because the semester has come to an end. I still have on exam to do over as I failed but it still feels like the summer has started now.

Weirdness

2009-06-07T01:09:00.004+03:00

Feelin a bit weird today. Yesterday I chilled at home reading, playing music and drinking wine and at 1am I decided to go out with some friends. We went to Zavod and stayed there until it closed. Met some cool people like always in Zavod. The thing that got me smiling was that as the bar closed at 5am the sun was already shining outside and the fact that a 100 people were chilling outside the bar in the morning drinking in the sunlight was something that was really great. These are the small things that make Tartu a great place to be at when young.

As weak as I am I finally went to the after party to a friends house, tried hittin on a girl but failed like always for some reason, slept for 5 hours and woke up feelin really weird. After this I've been just feeling really weird the whole day for some reason. The walk home in the rain was refreshing and got me thinking about things. I played some music to distract me from my weird feeling and put together the mix in the last post.

It's funny how some people are so mysterious that you just can't seem to really get into what they are thinking. It's been said that I'm sometimes that kind of a person and maybe that's why it bothers me when I can't seem to really understand someone. At the same time it makes that person more intriguing because you want to figure them out but at the same time it also makes you frustrated and think that maybe it's just my own problem. In this way I feel like a hamster on a treadmill, chasing something but never quite getting there. At times it makes me want to chase it more and at times I just quit.

I tried to read for my exams too but I couldn't consentrate. My eyes don't want to stay open but they won't shut either. Im really tired but sleeping seems like a waste of time. They call the night after a day of being hangover sometimes the night of lizards, where you feel really weird and might see weird scary dreams. I haven't really had that experience before but this night will probably be the first. I just feel it.

Next week I'll go back to Finland for a couple of weeks if I pass my two exams on Monday and Tuesday. jumping out of my life into the life I lived before seems as weird as it always does and now that I'm going to be spending long periods back home it seems even weirder. In a way I'm looking forward to the chance to chill with other friends and being at home but I feel sad about leaving everything on pause here. Anyways I think post is long enough already so I'll just stop writing. Be sure to check out the mix in the last post and here's my current favorite tune I just got really into today.

Raving On Beaches Mix

2009-06-06T17:57:00.003+03:00

I'll try to write about more new sounds soon but in the meanwhile I made a mix. 53 minutes of nice party music that blends all kinds of styles from indie to kuduro so check it out, take it to the beach enjoy the vibes.

http://soundcloud.com/masu/raving-on-beaches-mix

Tracklist:
1.Ellie Goulding - Starry Eyed (Jakwob Remix)
2.Friendly Fires - Skeleton Boy (Air France Remix)
3.Empire Of The Sun - Walking On A Dream (Treasure Fingers Remix)
4.33Hz - I Feel Alive (Eli Escobar Remix)
5.The Beatles - With A Little Help From My Friends (Figure Remix)
6.Dj Prince - Hombre Is In The Groove
7.Devendra Banhart - Carmensita (Toy Selectah Raverton Re-Fix)
8. Uproot Andy - Daft Cumbia
9.Boyz Noize - My o My man (Toy Selectah Raverton Refix)
10.Sade - Smooth Operator(LunyP Baile Funk Fix)
11.Freestyle - Don´t Stop The Rock (Baile Funk Mix)
12.Diplo - Way More Brazil
13.Vybz Kartel vs Bonde do role - Picture o Frango
14.Buraka Som Sistema - Yah!
15.Crookers - Soca Ali Baba (Degree & Daniels Remix)
16. Major Lazer - Hold The Line (Edu K Remix)
17.Idiot Savant - Jumpin N Pumpin 2.0
18.Timberlee - Gunny Gunny (Schlachthofbronx Remix)
19.Jahdan Blakkamoore - Go Round Payola (Matt Shadetek Bye Haters Rmx)
20. Twizzle - Skydiving (GreenMoney In Tha Sky Remix)
21.Diplo & Laidback Luke - Hey!
22.Buraka Som Sistema Ft.M.I.A - Sound Of Kuduro
23.AC Slater - Banger (Drop The Lime Remix)
24. Rye Rye Ft.M.I.A - Bang feat. M.I.A. (WTF I Asked For A Kuduro Remix)
25. DJ J-Laini & P-Man - After Laughter

On modern music trends pt.2 New Sounds:Baile Funk

2009-05-20T20:18:00.003+03:00

Another new sound that has gained alot of popularity during the last 2 years is Baile Funk aka Funk Carioca. Baile funk I think could be considered to be the first of the really foreign language sounds to hit the western alternative clubmusic scene. I'm probably wrong but I remember when about 1,5 years ago Baile Funk started getting noticed and there was a lot of talk that it is going to be huge in the west too. So far I think it has still stayed pretty ghetto based which I think is good for the sound. As far as western producers, Diplo has been promoting it for a while now. Most European capitals I think already have Baile Funk parties and eventhough there are not many European Baile Funk artists, there are remixes and the people that are into the sound, dig the Portugese language songs too.

So once again a question arises. What is Baile Funk? Basically it is a music genre developed in Brazil which combines 80's Miami bass, Hip-Hop, Dancehall, Funk and Samba all mixed up. The music is pretty samplebased so samplers are not a rarity on live gigs. The lyrics are mostly in Portugese because it's from Brazil. Another interesting thing is that as many other musical genres, Baile Funk also comes from the ghetto. It's known also as Favela Funk, Favelas are shanty towns and the lyrics usually are also about sex, drugs, violence, guns and so on.

When I discovered Baile Funk a few years back I was pretty into it but because it is quite ghetto based and in Portugese it was a bit hard for me to find the best tunes and I mostly listened to mixes which also had some genres in them. But to wrap things up I think Baile funk is still growing and waiting for it's final breakthrough in the western music scene. The sound is nice, fat and aggressive so once again something I like.

I don't know too many artists but I'd recommend Dj Marlboro, Sany Pitbull, Dj Edgar and a finnish dj called "Dj Rideon" who has really good mixes and remixes combining Baile funk and other genres. Also check out Diplo's Baile Funk tunes and Man Recordings label. Here's a few tunes and also a interview where Sany Pitbull plays around with a sampler and tells a bit about the music.

On modern music trends pt.2 New Sounds:Baltimore Club

2009-05-19T17:16:00.002+03:00

Alright so the first musical new sound that is getting alot of attention is Baltimore club. It's been around for a while now so it's not really a new thing but it's definately becoming more and more popular. I've heard and read that in the Baltimore area this sound is already showing signs of slowing down but as far as party music on an international level, this sound is definately still growing.

So what is Baltimore club? Well basically it's is based on two drum breaks and you can basically hear a Baltimore club tune by the drums. The most used drum breaks are from an old soul tune called "Think" by Lyn Collins and "Sing Sing" by Gaz

So this is the basis of the sound and basically everything else is free. As it is club music it has taken elements of electro, techno and other musical genres and all of these mixed together make a nice ravey result. The lyrics that are in Bmore club tunes are quite often harsh,nasty and similar to lyrics found in ghettotech tunes and that is exactly why I like it. It's ghetto, it's nasty, it's aggressive, it sounds good and the ladies like to shake their asses to it. What more can you ask for. As for my favorite Bmore producer I'd say Scottie B, Tittsworth and the Top Billin crew. Here are some remixes and tunes made by them and before those an interview with Tittsworth and Ayres where they tell a bit of Bmore.

On modern music trends pt.1 How we got here

2009-05-18T14:20:00.006+03:00

I read an interview with Diplo yesterday. The interview got me thinking about the current state of music and where it is going. As we all know the current big thing is electro. But in my opinion and as much as I've listened to electro recently I must say that electro has reached it's peak. So in the next few posts I'm going to go look into how we got to this point, where I think we will be going and I'll also try to introduce some new sounds to you. I don't know how much people even read this blog but I feel like writing this down. Of course all of this is written from my point of view and is based on my experiences so don't blame me if I've missed something.

But let me start off with remembering what things were like a few years back. I remember when back in the days everybody was into the hip-hop thing. By this I mean the Eminem era. Artists like Eminem brought hip-hop closer to the white suburban kids and that got me into hip-hop too. But then all these Linkin Parks and Limp Bizkits capitalized on that. It seemed that rock and hip-hop combined were on all record label roosters and no wonder because it sold well. Limp Bizkit was also one of my favorite bands because before I got into hip-hop I was listening to heavier music like Slipknot. Limp Bizkit seemed to combine these both things so I liked it.

After that it seemed that 80's glam rock came back and everybody was into The Ramones, Mötley Crue and Twisted Sister. There were a lot of people who got mohawks and dressed in this glam fashion. Especially the girls. Most of the guys got trucker hats and some even leather jackets. As it was, I too had a few trucker hats and started listening to Twisted Sister and Ramones and I still do sometimes. Of course as puberty started to hit this rebel thing was really cool and the Twisted Sister video is still awesome

After that came the Indie era. I never really got into Indie rock. Bands like Coldplay, Muse, Radiohead just seemed too boring for me. I liked Oasis and The Killers though. Especially the part of the Killers song which goes "I got soul but I'm not a soldier" because at that time I started to think about the justification of army's.

At that time I found reggae music. At the same time as this Indie rock thing was growing, the club hip-hop sound got really big and it seemed like you were either into hip-hop or then you were one of the indie kinds. I guess I was more on the hip-hop side by now although I was more into slower older hip-hop. But I didn't mind the more club-like sound either at times.

I brought this out because this hipster/electro thing has kind of brought all these groups together. At least in some way. The indie scene started slowing down about 2 years ago and electronic indie bands started taking over the scene. By now these indie kids are mostly listening to bands like Justice and other electronic music like this.
The interesting part is that the indie crowd seems to be into really pure electro.

At the same time that this was happening the southern styled club hip-hop scene started slowing down too because it got really mainstream with artists like T-Pain,Timbaland, Flo Rida and others bringing it to all radio stations and even artists like Britney Spears and Madonna got produced by Timbaland bringing the club hip-hop influence into their music. Because of this the original hip-hop diggers started searching for new sounds in the game and as the hip-hop sound started to get more electronic too with Kanye West in front with his Stronger hit and producers like Flying Lotus started to get noticed and even Pharrell put on wayfarers now and started making electronic hip-hop. Electronic hip-hop seems to be quite big right now with artists like Kid Cudi and Common bringing it to the mainstream too.

So here we are in 2009. Everything has been thrown into one big pot and being mixed up. Indie kids dig purer electro and the hip-hop heads are into the dirtyer Baltimore club sound now. Everything is being remixed into every possible genre and everything can be found on millions of blogs. So the question is where is this all going and what should be expected? In the next post I'll try to show you some newer sounds that are starting to gain popularity and what I think will be huge soon.

Weird days

2009-05-15T13:37:00.004+03:00

I'm feeling a bit weird today. I came home from a party around 3am and woke up at 8am for some reason. Maybe it's just the sleep deprivation but everything is kind of mixed up right now. All my feelings, thoughts and doings are kind of foggy and unclear. So today shall be a day to find somekind of direction. Sometimes it's fun to be out of ones rails but today it's just distressing. I kinda opened myself up yesterday and as a result got a kick in the face(figuratively of course). There's a good line in one of John Holt's songs that I cannot remember right now but it's something about not wanting to learn things the hard way and I guess that's true. The situation that happened to me was something that hasn't happened to me before and eventhough alcohol, our nations favorite way of communication, had some to do with it, I find myself in a weird situation mentally although maybe I shouldn't. I have a bad habit of analyzing everything I do and I have a hard time letting go of these thoughts even if they were something minor. I don't know if writing this helps me to set my thoughts in order but I felt a need to write. I guess time will tell how my thoughts line up. Peace Out! and here's a tune that came on shuffle this morning and made me remember how good Common really is

Warm spring nights and weird things

2009-04-28T23:54:00.004+03:00

This last week has been quite cool. I haven't really been on any classes but I've studied at home. The weather has been totally awesome. Since last friday most of the days have passed outside on terraces and parks. On friday I went to the main park in Tartu where everyone's always chillin out. We chilled out and decided that on Sunday we would go to Riga because my friend had his Jeep Wrangler here and the weather was supposed to be awesome. Spontanious and semi/spontanious trips are always lots of fun and so was this one.

On sunday morning I woke up in my bed with two people beside me because there had once again been a small party at our apartment. I was really psyched about going but I felt a bit tired because I stayed up til' 4am and we were supposed to leave at 8am. After getting all the people who crashed at our place out of the apartment we finally got on the way and the vibe was nice. Unfortunately my Ipod decided to crash just before we got on the way so we couldn't listen to any good tunes but that was no problem. Riga itself was also really nice and the vibe in the city was good. Latvia still had this kind of Soviet vibe here and there which can not be seen in Estonia anymore. But we described it as the Paris of the Baltic. On sunday we just walked around and chilled out and as night time came we went out to a few bars and after that we bought a bunch of vodka and went back to the hotel to drink it. As the clock hit 1am we left the hotel with some Spanish Erasmus student for a bar. The first bar we wanted to go to was unfortunately closed but we soon found another one. This place was really weird starting from the guy at the door. We finally decided to go in and it got even weirder. The place was quite empty but there were a lot of local guys that were armwrestling by this table that was specially designed for it. There was even the Ukranian womens armwrestling champion there which was totally weird. Our friend M(a girl) was a bit freaked out about the place because it was mostly guys and the place had this halloween vibe. Me and my friend took a armwrestling match after which this random latvian guy whos biceps were the size of my head challenged me to a match with him and didn't take no for an answer. Of course I lost immediately because I basically have no biceps compared to him. We stayed at the bar, danced a bit on the empty dancefloor and just wondered how the hell did we end up in this superweird place.

After night of sleep I woke up with no hangover and I was really glad about that. We went on a free citytour with this student dude who showed us around Riga and we visited some pretty nice places that are not on the tourist map like some galleries and this superweird market that had anything you could dream of from clothes to lightswitches and random scrapmetal. I tried to haggle myself an old Sony ghettoblaster but we didn't agree with the price. After all this we went to eat and headed back for Tartu. As we entered Tartu this song called "No Land is alone" which is a classic freedom song made me think about the great song festivals that are held in Tallinn every 5 years. As it turned out later that evening there was a students night song festival happening in Tartu later that night and that was something I had to go to eventhough I was tired. 3000 students in a valley singing songs on a warm spring night. That's just something special. The night was fun and I finally got home around 1am and felt really good about the long weekend that had just passed.

So that was basically it and now it's just 5 days of hard studying and some parties on thursday that are coming. Hopefully I'll get all my work done nicely so that I can enjoy the weekend but we'll see. Peace out and here's the tune that I was talking about earlier performed 20 years ago at the Tallinn song festival.

Gotta find that positivity again

2009-04-22T00:34:00.004+03:00

I just spent a long weekend in Finland and to be honest I'm not feeling that positive right now. The reason for this is simple. I lost my camera. I don't even know if that's the main reason for this certain annoying feeling that I'm having right now, I guess this was just the thing that triggered the feeling. Things haven't really been going my way recently. I can't say that everything would have gone to shit either but some small things have been bothering me lately and this weekend just kind of made me realize some of these things and also gave me time to think about these things.

On the otherhand everything is actually quite well. Spring is settling in, school is going to be over soon and although I have a lot of reading and different assignments to finish for school during the next two weeks, I feel quite optimistic that I can get through all this. So there is some controversy in my thoughts right now and confusion about what I really feel. Hopefully I can come out of this state of mind with positivity because after all things are not that bad.

The weekend itself was fun. I got to see some friends and hang out. It was once again interesting to see how things change and how your social environment influences you're thoughts and outlooks on life. My life has changed quite a bit during the past year but I feel like most of my past social envrironment is still the same that it was 8 months ago. It's nice every now and then to go back to the safe old envrironment you left but at the same time I'd like to show everyone all the things I have seen and learned after leaving Finland and I'd like to see all my friends moving on in life too. Not that the old environment is bad but it's just that leaving that environment opens you up to a million new things and that is only positive. I feel like I have grown a lot since I left Finland but I also feel that there is a lot more room to grow.

I read my friends blog yesterday and there was thing certain kind of positivity and joy in some of the posts that made me realize that I should actually be a lot more positive. At the end of the day there are a million cool things in life and these small obstacles should not stress me out as much as they do. Life should be enjoyed to the fullest and I'm only young once so why am I wasting time in stressing about stupid shit. The other thing that I started thinking about was my own behavior. I consider myself to be quite shy. If I'm going to enjoy life to the fullest I should learn to express my feelings and thoughts freely to other people but somekind of thing just stops me from completely doing that. I guess that thing could be called my personality. It often annoys me that I'm so quite and shy although I might not seem like that. Maybe it's being afraid of failure or something like that or maybe it's something totally different. I should work on that or maybe it'll come to me by growing up more and gaining some kind of wisdom, I don't know.

We'll this post came out as quite a pure stream of thought but anyways there's once again some soul searching to be done in the future. Here's a tune I'm diggin right now.

Dance Dance Dance (Buraka Som Sistema Remix) - Lykke Li

A few videos from Kaarli Caffee

2009-04-13T19:04:00.005+03:00

So here's a few videos I took before my battery run out. This first one is quite ravy

This second one is a bit slower but Tesla drops a big tune

And this last one is a huge tune combining some classic jamaican vocals with dubstep. I love this tune!

Weekend warrior

2009-04-12T23:31:00.004+03:00

Once again there's been a long pause between posts. As always I have just been too lazy or I havent had anything that I wanted to share.
Anyways the last 2 weekends I've been in Tallinn. Last weekend was my cousins birthday party. We brought my turntables to Tallinn and had a nice house party. I got to play some mad rave tunes and everyone had a good time. These days it's rare to get to go to house parties because everyone's legally allowed to bars. Back when everyone was underaged we had no place to go and everytime someones parents went away, you'd have a party. There is something special about house parties. I don't know exactly what it is but maybe it's the vibe or something.

This week it was a bar that had the action. I went to tallinn on saturday morning and got together with my parents whom I hadn't seen in almost 3 months. I have to admit that at first it felt a bit weird. I've never been apart from my parents for this long and this is why it felt weird. I haven't really missed my parents and my sisters that much (not in a bad sense) so it wasn't like this complete happiness came upon me. Of course I was glad to see them but it was somewhat different to what I usually feel it when I go home to Finland to see them.

When the day started to turn to evening I headed out towards the center of Tallinn. As I left the suburbs of Viimsi I saw the sunset which was amazing. Here in Tartu there is no sea, only a river and because I've been living my whole life beside the sea, it feels really good everytime I see the sea again. This added to the sunset made me feel really good as the super mellow Gregory Isaacs song I'm about to add here later, played on my Ipod. As the bus went on the amazing sunset was replaced by concrete houses and it was like a leap back to reality.

When I got to the centre I went to get some food and booze and then I took a tram to the place that I was supposed to go. This was the part of town called Kalamaja. Here I met up with with a girl I know(I'll call her B) and we went to this apartment where her friends were already chilling. At first it felt a bit weird as I didn't really know anyone that good and I naturally I couldn't really understand what or who they were talking about as I hadn't known them for a long time. As the evening went on B's friends decided to go to the bar already so that they could get in (they're underage. I know not my usual group of people to hang out with but they're cool :D).

Me and B stayed at the crib and talked about random shit and soon headed to the bar aswell. As it turned out none of the girls got into the bar so they went back to the apartment. Me and B still decided to go to the bar as there was a really good dubstep producer/dj Tes La Rok playing at the bar. So with just us two left we got some drinks and checked the place out. The place started to pack up slowly and the party was getting nice. Tes La Rok threw a killer set and I must say that it was the first time in while that I have really liked dubstep. The bass was good, the tunes were agressive and I really enjoyed the bass vibrations. Of course the music was so loud that it was quite impossible to speak with one another so we typed messages on our phones.

After Tes La Rok finished his set we were quite tired and headed back to the apartment. As we went there it was funny how I recognised some of the places as in september I had wandered around the city quite drunk and I finally ended up in this Squat that had a nice party. Anyways after this nostalgic experience we got back to the apartment, had a drink and finally went to sleep. The bed was this air matress that was almost completely empty and there was no pump to fill it up. We'll it had to do so we listened to a few tunes and I fell asleep without ever making a move on B.

The next morning I woke up with a killer headache and looked beside me and saw B. The first thing that came to my mind was FAIL. I had a beautiful girl beside me who to my understanding liked me and I never made a move. Four letters F.A.I.L and I went on to cure my hangover with some water and a headache pill. Soon we left the apartment, went to the centre, said goodbye and I went on to see my parents again. I hanged out with them for a while, my dad bought me the South Rakkas Crew - Mad Again 12" which was cool and then I started my journey back to Tartu. I wanted to walk to the buss station so that I could get some fresh air and maybe start to feel a bit better. It kinda worked and I stopped at a clothing store to pick up the new Vice mag. I slept the whole 2,5 hour bus ride and finally got home.

In a nutshell the weekend combined good music, cool people, some frustration and a killer hangover.

P.S The tune I promised. I just love this. Easy natty easy, don't take it so ruff!

Housewarming

2009-03-23T23:44:00.004+02:00

So this weekend
I guess I'll start from the beginning. About two months ago when we signed the rent contract for our apartment we decided to have a housewarming party this weekend. About 140 invites were given out to people via facebook and nothing was really planned. As expected most of the people who were invited to come from Finland were not able to attend the party. I was a bit bummed in the end because none of my finnish friends came out here. Luckily there were a bunch of people coming from Estonia so there was nothing to be worried about. As last thursday morning finally came i was psyched. I finished my lectures and went to the store. I've never really thought about the time when I've bought alcohol but this time it so happened that the time was 9.56 when I was at the cashier and the last item that I wanted to buy was a 4-pack of beer. I was a bit embarrassed when the cashier told me that I'm not allowed to buy beer this early in the morning.

After waiting a few minutes I was allowed to buy the beer and go home. My relative had already come to Tartu on wednesday and we chilled out and had a beer. In the evening the party slowly started. A bunch of friends came by, some of my roommates friends came from Finland and a couple of girls from Tallinn that I had met a few years back also came to the party. The night went on with me playing some records, everyone drinking and having a good time. We never got to the bar.

Friday morning I woke up with a killer hangover, a serious headache and tired as hell. The day passed on the couch with everybody playing the playstation. As evening came more people came joined the party and the party went on. More music,more drinks and finally this time people planned to go out. As it turned out, me and a couple of other people couldn't fit into the third cab so we decided to take another one later. As I had expected we never got to the club, but we did have some interesting discussions. As the clock hit 3am we still kept on chilling and finally we ended up sitting on the kitchen floor with a few people.

The next morning was a bit better for me. I woke up to the sound of a guitar and some singing in the livingroom and I decided to get up. Most of the people were already having their first drinks and the day started off from where it had left last night, the kitchen floor. The weather was nice and eventhough everyone were tired the vibe was quite nice. After some Bob Dylan and Flogging Molly songs played on the guitar and sung by a nice dude called Visa, the day turned into night. It seemed like everyone was too tired to party and and it looked like nobody was coming to the party. Well I was wrong. Once again people showed up, everyone got drunk, we had a good time. We popped champagne, sang some songs and chilled in the dark. I spent the last hours of the night talking drunken jibberish to a girl and continued to have a good time. I guess by this time the topics of discussion were quite stupid but that didn't hurt anyone.

Unfortunately by this time I noticed that by bed had been taken over but luckily the door in my room could not be closed because of a cord coming from my room to the computer. This meant that there was still hope that I could sleep in my own bed. Unfortunately the people who had taken over the bed decided also to sleep in it and I could not, because of my nature, throw them out. So I found my place between all the people and cuddled next to the girl I was talking to earlier. I woke up during the night in a kind of panic as the bed was full of people and it was a bit tight. I survived the night and woke up to a sunday morning feeling terrible. Not in a hangover way but just feeling totally exhausted and tired after three nights of partying. The rest of the day passed on the couch for me and I had absolutely no energy to do anything else.

I guess that sums up the weekend. Good times and bad hangovers being repared by the duck tape of our souls, alcohol.

Sober!

2009-03-23T10:04:00.002+02:00

Man it feels good to be sober! We had a housewarming party with my roommate this weekend and as you can guess, the party lasted from thursday to sunday. I had a good time, a lot of people came by and partied with us and I also met some new people. The weekend was exhausting though. Yesterday I was so exhausted that I couldn't do almost anything for the whole day and the essay that I had to produce for the lecture that I'm about to go to in five minutes was a real pain in the ass. Luckily I got it done and after a good night sleep I woke up this morning feeling relatively good. I'm still tired like hell but otherwise thing are looking quite good. I got my essay printed out easily at a shop this morning and I bought some fresh bakery products from the store. It's still going to take a few days to get over this weekend but right now I feel quite good about being sober and able

P.S I'm going to try and write a more deeper post on the weekend later if I have the energy to do so and if there's even anything to write about. Now I have to go to the lecture room. Peace Out!

A place in my mind

2009-03-16T01:37:00.003+02:00

I can't sleep so I'll blog instead.
I just started dreaming about summer. I would definitely like some sun right now. A while back we were thinking with my friends that in the beginning of the upcoming summer we should head for a little roadtrip to Latvia. There's some killer beaches there and right now I can just imagine myself sitting in the sun on that beach listening to some sweet reggae tunes from a boombox, enjoying a cold beer and the company of friends. Just the idea of this get's a smile on my face right now. What could be better.

It's funny how trips with friends are the most bright memories you have and usually also the best. I could mention numerous trips that I keep on coming back to in my memories. I guess it's the fact that you're somewhere outside your usual environment and there is this special kind of excitement and freedom in these trips. From simple 30 km drives somewhere for the day to 3 week journeys abroad, a trip with friends just has that special ingredient that that makes it worth spending money on. I can never understand people who say that travelling is a stupid way of spending money, that what's the point of spending money on spending time somewhere else instead of using it to get something actual. In my opinion travelling is the best thing to spend money on. Before moving out of my parents house I spent almost every dime I got on travelling and I don't regret it for a second. The experiences that I have gotten from these trips have been something priceless and of great value to who I am. Unfortunately there is always a too long time between these kind of trips. Luckily spring is not that far away right now so things are looking up. That's it for now, I have to get some sleep.

P.S Here's one of the tunes I might listen to on that beach. Supernice tune and the video is quite beachy too. Full niceness

Positive day

2009-03-15T00:09:00.003+02:00

So another saturday has passed and it's time to post again. I waited the whole week for the weekend and now it's soon over. I guess this is a conclusion every weekend for everyone but time just passes too fast.

This weekend I've been quite happy not to go and party too much. Yesterday I recorded my mix and just chilled and watched TV. Today started off quite nicely. I felt quite fresh when waking up and I decided to go for a run. Since my throat is still hurting a bit and my nose is running I felt like my capability to intake oxygen was smaller than usual. The first 15 minutes of the run were quite relaxing and I was really excited to be back running. After that a sudden uncomfortable feeling came upon me. I knew I didn't run too fast so I was a bit bummed about this. The rest of my run went quite walking speed but I still felt good about finally getting out and doing something physical. If I feel good tomorrow, I think I'm going to go for a small run again.

We were just talking the other day with my roommate that we should try and get into beach shape for the summer. I guess this is a good start but we were also joking about starting Pilates. In reality I would be quite interested in trying Pilates. A workout that doesnt make you sweat, strengthens your inner muscles and improves your posture can't be all that bad. I guess time will tell if we really decide to try Pilates or will I stick to running but right now I'm feeling quite confident.

The rest of today passed quite easily. We made some good Spaghetti Napoletana with tofu meatballs and added some kidney beans,onion and garlic to the sauce. The food was really good and my roommate was actually quite happy with his first tofu dish. During the evening a girl that I met last weekend as a friend of my roommates friend called and asked us if she could come and chill out with us for the evening because she was bored. We agreed of course and the rest of the evening passed with watching Skins,Mythbusters and Live@Abbey Road. It's quite funny that this girl has been randomly hanging out with us recently but it has been fun. People who make friends this easy always seem to amaze me. Maybe it's because I consider myself to be quite a shy person.

We were just talking the other day with my roommate that we should try and get into beach shape for the summer. I guess this is a good start but we were also joking about starting Pilates. In reality I would be quite interested in trying Pilates. A workout that doesnt make you sweat, strengthens your inner muscles and improves your posture can't be all that bad. I guess time will tell if we really decide to try Pilates or will I stick to running but right now I'm feeling quite confident.

P.S I guess I should post a tune that I've been listening during writing this post. So here's the original Valerie and folkpop song by Camera Obscura

Motivation?

2009-03-14T02:20:00.003+02:00

It's been a month since my last real post again. It's funny how these writing pauses come in months,. For some reason you just don't feel like writing. It takes a certain state of mind for me to write. A kind of dreamy state where you dive into what you have been doing lately and start to think about where you want to go.

During the past month I've had a lack of motivation. I haven't really been interested in school or doing anything important. I've been just waiting for somekind of thing to get me motivated again but so far it has not come. There was a 2 two day episode of sun a week ago. That was a short-term help but when monday came around my mood was back to back to being the same. I also broke up with my girlfriend this week. It's one of those things that are so hard to do for me but in the end you just have to face the situation and do what you feel deep down. I guess this is also a start of a new time in someway. The first quarter of 2009 is over and spring is coming up so I guess there should be only good things coming up and that is what I'm looking forward to.
It's hard to get all the things and thoughts of a month into one post so this post came out as quite a small nutshell of things. I guess I'll throw in the basic saying that I'll try to post more soon but I can't promise anything.

It Was A Good Day Mix

2009-03-13T20:00:00.002+02:00

I recently got new needles for my turntables and I also invested on a digital vinyl system called Torq. So I've been playing a lot of music lately and now I decided to put a mix together. So here's 68 minutes of chilled out hip-hop for you. Hope you like it and if you do then share it!

Download Here: http://server2.jaatiedostosi.com/Z5O8u_/

Tracklist:
1.Talib Kweli - The Nature ft.Justin Timberlake
2.Common - Black Maybe ft.Bilal
3.The Rascalz - Top Of The World ft.Barrington Levy
4.Jay Z - Can't Knock The Hustle ft.Mary J Blige
5.Common - Used To Love Her
6.Outkast - Aquemini
7.Paleface - Colgate Soulmate
8.Outkast - Jazzy Belle
9.Nas - If I Ruled The World ft.Lauryn Hill
10.Y-Society - Peace I'm Out The Door
11.The Pharcyde - Runnin
12.Jungle Brothers - Brain
13.Gangstarr - Love Sick
14.Common - Nuthin To Do
15.Jeru The Damaja - Me Or The Papes
16.Main Source - Just Hangin Out
17.Q-Tip - Won't Trade
18.Mos Def - Miss Fat Booty
19.Mos Def - Miss Fat Booty ft.Ghostface Killer (Remix)
20.Pete Rock - It's A Love Thing
21.Afu-Ra - Cry Baby
22.Pacewon & Mr.Green - Children Sing
23.Promoe - Positive & Negative
24.Nas - 2nd Childhood
25.Ice Cube - It Was A Good Day

19th Birthday

2009-02-18T14:02:00.002+02:00

So now I'm officially 19 years old. For some reason this day does not seem to have any significant meaning to me. I woke up today feeling like I do everyday without having any so called birthday feelings. I don't know yet how I'm going to celebrate this day but I think It'll be quite low profile. Im currently sitting at a lecture on the psychology of individualistic differences. The last lecture I went to today was superboring. I basically surfed on the internet for 90 minutes. Hopefully this lecture will be a bit more interesting.
Anyways I've been sick for the past week and now I'm finally getting back to my basic routine, going to lectures and so on. It actually feels quite good although I'm still a bit bugged about missing most of my lectures last week. Now I'm having a hard time making a decision about going to Finland for a week. We'll have a two day break from school next week so I could basically with a little bit of talking to my teacher, get a whole week off. That would be quite sweet because then I could celebrate my birthday also with my finnish friends and I would have the whole house, and the car to myself because my family went to Cuba for two weeks. So basically everything is quite open right now as far as plans go. Also pretty much everything else is quite open right now too. Last night I spent the first night at the new apartment. All my stuff is all over the place right now and there's no order in things yet. But I guess things will balance themselves out during the next couple of weeks. I can't wait for that. I'd like to have all my stuff in good order and to be settled down there already. I'd like to have a good internet connection, a TV, new matresses and also some new furniture at the new apartment but that will have to wait for now.
That's it for my 19th birthday post. Happy birthday to me and hopefully my last teen year will be a blast! Now i'll get back to listening to the lecture..

Balance

2009-02-06T02:11:00.003+02:00

I just read my last post and I must say that it's amazing how the state of mind can change in a week. From needing and waiting for everyday routines and responsibilities to wanting freedom, calmness and lack of routine. During the week in the canaries I started thinking about stuff, like always. A friend of mine said something funny on the first days of our vacation. He was wondering how everytime he looked at the nudist part of the beach, they never had any clouds as opposed to the other parts that always had a few random clouds going around. He said as a joke that "I guess they just think about things more". I can't remember the exact situation in which this discussion occurred but it lead to a joke that when will I become a nudist because I always think about things.

Playa del Ingles had exactly the both sides of the coin. The beach, the warmth and the palms representing all the good things in life and the the neon lights, the fly-like guys who want to sell all kinds of shit to you and get you into bars and the rough rocky terrain representing the other part of life. I guess life should be a balance of all this. Last week I wanted responsibility, this week I want freedom. The best moment of the vacation was when I went for a walk one evening. I put my headphones on and walked to the beach. There was just a handful of people on the beach. The sun was setting but everyone had left. It was the most beautiful part of the day but everyone was back in their hotels hurrying to get ready for the evening. I took off my flip-flops and just walked slowly for quite a long time. In the end I stopped and sat down. I took off my headphones and and just sat there for 15 minutes just looking at the ocean. I didn't say a word and I cleared my mind from all thoughts. Those few minutes were the thing apart from spending time with my friends, what I will remember about the holiday.

All in all it got me thinking about why do people want to live here in the cold north? To stay indoors 9 months of the year. To wake up in the morning feeling shitty about going to work. To come back home from work watching out from the window of the bus, avoiding all communication with others. Even the slightest look into someones eyes seems so weird to us that we immediately turn away. But at the end of the day you still stay here, thinking about going away but never doing it the way you dream about. Of course one day I will leave for a while too but it will never be the way I dreamed about because that is Utopia. The coin always has two sides. The only thing we can do is to try and stay on the better side.

Anyways this post turned out quite differently that I expected but that just proves that things never really go the way you thought they would. Here's a tune. I don't know what the song is about but the melodies describe my feelings well.

	Francoiz Breut - Si Tu Disais

	Found at bee mp3 search engine

Routine or no routine?

2009-01-28T23:15:00.002+02:00

Right now I'm on a boat to Tallinn. This journey has become a thing that I have become quite used to. Luckily today I don't have to go all the way to Tartu, just Tallinn. Tomorrow we're going to The Canarys with a bunch of friends. I'm really looking forward to that. They say that the best way to get to know your friends is to go and travel with them. I have found this to be true and I have certainly learned more about my friends while travelling with them. But this time there will be a new set of friends to learn about. It's going to be interesting for sure. I probably won't be blogging that much during the next week, or maybe if there's wifi in the hotel which I doubt there is.

Today I started thinking about the absurdity of things. I took a bus from the train station in Helsinki to the harbor. While sitting in the bus I noticed that there were painkiller adverts behind every seat. How fucked up is that? I'm not saying that painkillers are all bad but I would say that it says something about the working culture of Finland. I can imagine stressed out people coming from their jobs sitting in the full bus in the afternoon traffic, watching out into the depressing darkness outside and then on top of all this theres a painkiller advert in your face. No wonder people are so fucked up in Finland. In stead of these adverts there should be something inspiring on the seats, something to make the stressed out people feel better. But once again this shows us the power of the almighty dollar (well euro in this case).

Anyways I have been thinking about stuff and I must admit that I'm kind of happy about a new semester starting soon. During the last month and a half I've been all over the place. I've spent most of the time at home in Finland which has been cool but on the other hand I've been aware that I have to come back to Estonia. I'm not saying that coming back to Estonia is a bad thing but staying in Finland has just been a place to go to where there's no responsibilities and so on, a place where my real life is not at the moment. The fact is that I live in Tartu and being in Finland is currently just a break from that. But the more time you spend on a break, the harder it is to go back. I'm not usually a big fan of routines but I have to say that right now I wouldn't mind that routine. But that's all the complaining I have to do right now. I'm going away to the sun and I'm definitely going to enjoy it. Peace Out!

100th

2009-01-27T01:41:00.003+02:00

So this is the 100th post in this blog. I remember when I wrote the 50th post but I must say that another 50 posts have come suprisingly fast. All I can say is thanks to all who have bothered to read this blog and hopefully you've gotten something out of it. Maybe learned to know more about me and the way I think or maybe you've found some nice music or perhaps you've just found this blog to be a blog to laugh at because it's stupid. I don't know but at least the visitor counter keep going steadily up so at least someone seems to have an interest in my scribblings.

Today I watched a documentary about Barack Obama. It got me thinking about politics. Right now it seems that Barack is doing a lot of good things as the president of USA. The closing of Guantanamo Bay, the car pollution decisions plus many others. It is so funny to see all these things happening and it's only his first week on the job. I can't help but to wonder how this is going to go on. Is it really possible to have a smart man who can make good decisions regarding many areas internationally but also on a national level? So far it seems to be unbelievable. All the forums are full of praising comments and everybody has a very optimistic view of what Obama will do in the future. I truly hope that this was a turning point in history, that America would finally start doing some good instead of just fucking everything up. But I still have doubts. I'm afraid that Obama will get cought up in the corrupt political system of USA. But so far things have only gotten better.
For a long time during the fall I was not very exhilarated about Obama. The reasons for this were that I thought that other presidential candidates such as Ron Paul and Dennis Kucinich would have been better for the job. But today I realised why I might have been wrong. Barack Obama is super charismatic, he has a true ability to give people hope and to believe in things. He can speak, he has a voice that is instantly recognisable and memorable. He is 50% white 50% black so he appeals to everyone. Overall he just seems as a man who could make changes happen. Some say that there is a huge person-cult involved with him but I think that as long as he makes decisions which are clearly good for America and for the rest of the world, that is totally acceptable and even good for the most parts. It is common knowledge that in order to make big changes and truly push things through, you need to have the people behind you and this is what Obama has. As we all know he has huge problems to deal with but because of his personality I think that the people of America are willing to go through some lifestyle changes which in the long run will be for their best. This is something that I don't think G.W Bush had.

As for Ron Paul and Dennis Kucinich, I think that they still would do a better job of making good decisions which would be good for not only America but also for the whole world. But with only the idea and the will to accomplish something, nothing will get done. This is the part where Obama shines. Although he might not make all the 100% best decisions concerning some things, he has the ability to push these things through so that everybody will be happy and this is why I think Obama deserves to be the president.

P.S this post came out totally different than I thought it would but I guess that's ok, I just had it in my mind so I wrote it down. And to balance out the maybe boring political post here is a tune to listen to.

Videos from Lohja

2009-01-25T22:29:00.002+02:00

Here are the videos I promised. My internet connection was not very kind yesterday so I'll post them today. Good vibes!

Lohja Ting

2009-01-24T03:13:00.003+02:00

Today we decided to go to Lohja for the grand opening party of Club Riddim, a new monthly reggae/dancehall night in Lohja. The night was quite fun eventhough I went there with just one friend. Luckily we met up with some other friends at the spot. My man Cstar threw a good gig with some new material and got the crowd well warmed up. He also hooked me up with a brand new tune they finished yesterday with Olpek so right now I'm listening to that non-stop, nice tune! Large Up Simon!
Anyways after Cstars gig Leimasin from Pouta Sound played some big tunes before the crown prince of finnish reggae a.k.a Raappana came on stage. As expected everyone in the crown knew the words to the songs he sang and the vibe was nice. Raappana also threw in some newer material of which I was quite psyched about. I'll post the videos I took from the gig here tomorrow.
The funniest thing about the night was the fact that the party was in Lohja. Lohja is the one place in Finland where you can find people who at the same time dig reggae,dancehall, heavy-metal and trance all at the same time. People who are the biggest supporters of anarchy but also peace at the same time. People who are really concious but own a polluting BMW at the same time. Ok, this is probably not true but the crowd you find in Lohja is just something else. Maybe it's all about my own prejudices about Lohja but something just made me laugh when I saw the people at the party. Once again no offence to most of the people at the party but the few exceptions got me laughing. Anyways the party was nice, the music was nice, some of the girls were hot and the beer was quite cheap so in all the night was a success and once again I remember why I love reggae music so much. Peace Out!

P.S During the past days I have re-discovered the brilliance of Buju Banton. I was not too fond of him earlier but the more I dig into his music the more great tracks I find. So here's a track from the master himself, Buju Banton.

One of those days

2009-01-23T01:24:00.002+02:00

Today was a historical day in my life. I signed my first real rent contract for an apartment (the dorm does not count). It's no big deal really, but then again it is one of those things that I'm going to remember for the rest of my life. You always remember the first. I'm really happy about it because I was a bit tired of living at the dorm. It's not that the dorm was not a good one but it never felt like home. It was just a place to come for a pause between studying and other things. It never felt like a place that I would like to really come back to and rest. This new place felt like home the instant that we went there for the first time. It has plenty of room. I have my own room and there's a livingroom where you can chill out. In the sealing there are these beams where I could possibly hang a hammock. That would be sweet. The rent is a bit expensive if splitted into two but hopefully we'll find another dude to come and live with us so that we could split the rent into 3.
Anywas now the first semester is over and I can proudly say that I've completed 1/6 of my Bachelors degree. It feels really weird though. Time goes so fast and I can't imagine myself doing practical studies at school next year. To sum up this first semester I'd say that it was a introduction into university life and also to living in Estonia. For the next semester my goals are to work a bit harder and get better grades. That's it for now.

P.S I should start writing more philosophical posts. I feel like these descriptions of my recent doings are boring to read even for me. Maybe I'll get into that mood some day soon :D Meanwhile listen to my new favorite lovers tune. Tarrus Riley has been one of my favorite male singers from Jamaica for a long time now and Alaine one of my favorite female singers from Jamaica so as soon as I heard of this I knew it had to be good and I was not wrong. Check it out, sweet vibes!
Oh yeah, I've started to plan a new mix full of supernice vibes for the first days of spring and summer. I guess it'll take a while before it's ready but before that I'll try to post a mix I made in October full of one drop tunes. Soon Come :D

FOREVER MORE - Alaine & Tarrus Riley

It's all good!

2009-01-19T23:32:00.003+02:00

Exam season is almost over. I just got a feeling that I should write something down again. Since my last post things have gotten a bit easier. I came back to Tartu about a week ago and I've been studying and chilling pretty much. I had some time to meet up with my girlfriend(I guess it's appropriate to call her that) after the long christmas break. I also attended a few parties and enjoyed some good music. Now I only have 2 more exams and than I have another 2 and a half weeks of vacation. On thursday I'm gonna go to Finland for a week. It's probably going to be a week of just taking it supereasy and getting ready for the next semester. Hopefully I'll get some friends together to go to see Top Billin, New Judas and Sinden at Tavastia on friday but otherwise I'm pretty much just waiting for the trip to the Canary Islands. That's going to be 29.1 - 5.2. I can't wait to get to the beach and just grab a cold beer and enjoy the sun and the company of friends. So basically right now apart from the upcoming exams things are quite good. It's all good!

P.S here's a tune I just found thanks to my little cousin Karl. Gotta love this one. Supernice beat and smooth raps. Peace Out!

Children Sing - Pacewon And Mr. Green

Distress, eh?

2009-01-09T01:39:00.003+02:00

I just finished reading 1984 by George Orwell. A feeling of uneasiness and a feeling of a small weight being off my shoulders has taken over me. I don't know why this is exactly. The last 50 pages of the book were quite distressing in a way. I'm a bit dissapointed with the ending of the book but at the same time I don't know if the ending that I would have preferred would have been any better. I liked the book although it was certainly the hardest book I've ever read. There are so many thoughts that can be formed from almost each sentence of the book that it is impossible for me to get these thoughts cleared in my head by tomorrow. I have to write a paper on the book during the following days. It is already 4 days from the deadline that it was supposed to be ready. On the otherhand there was no way that I could have delivered the paper version to the teacher by the deadline anyways, as I am here in Finland for 4 more days.

I'm still a bit dissapointed with myself. Why have I missed the deadline? I guess the reasons for this are mostly psychological. During the semester I've had this fear of doing any decent studying. Maybe fear is the wrong word but some sort of anxiety and anti-motivation. I don't know where it is coming from but it has been keeping me down. When the new semester starts it will be as a fresh start, a chance to redeem myself, a chance to start studying and make some progress. I guess this first semester has been a time of settling down and finding peace with the new life situation that I'm in. Hopefully the beginning of the new semester will mark the beginning of a better student and a more active me. At least that is what I'm aiming for. Peace Out!

Positive & Negative

2009-01-05T02:30:00.004+02:00

I just finished watching Kidulthood, a movie about the hard life of teenagers living in the poorer parts of London. The movie is kind of a continuation to the TV-show "Skins" but a bit more grimy. I liked the film and I really like the soundtrack. There's something really original in British hip-hop, grime and other underground genres that is different to the american hip-hop scene. It is just that much more realistic in some way. I can't say if it really is so if you compare the real underground scenes of America and England but that's the feeling I get.
I've been into some depressing things lately. Well maybe not depressing but dark. I'm currently reading George Orwell's "1984", I've been listening to a lot of dubstep recently and now I got into this movie and the grimy soundtrack. On the other hand I've been into some really positive vibes too. I've been vibin the Woodstock 69 and Experience The Rainbow documentaries and thought about positive things. I guess its just something to keep me in balance. From extreme hippy things to extremely dark sceneries of London. Anyways here are some things to watch and listen to. Peace Out!

Kidulthood
We'll I already described it above so check it out. Here's the trailer

Jus A Rascal - Dizzee Rascal

Woodstock - 3 Days of Peace & Music
The vibe in this is just something unbeatable. I wish I lived back in 69 ! Beautiful!

New year, new thigs

2009-01-04T00:48:00.002+02:00

It's been a month since my last post on this blog. I can't really explain why this is but I guess there are some reasons. During my time of exam-stress and christmas time I haven't had the energy to write anything. During exams I simply had other stuff to do and around christmas I was in my own peaceful bubble where I didn't do anything. This was actually quite interesting. I spent less time on the internet and more time just being on my own and with my family. Now that 2009 has started I guess its time to start living again.

During this christmas break I have been thinking a lot about things and a lot has happened too. I have seen some problems between my friends, I have heard opinions on life, I have witnessed great things but also terrible things and from all of this I have constructed my own thoughts. I have also realised some problems in my own life and tried to figure out how to solve these problems and how to live a better life.
I guess it is normal to recap the year at the end of the year and develop new plans for the coming year. 2008 was a great year and a lot has changed during 2008. I've described these changes in previous post so I'm not gonna go through them now. All I can say is that I'm looking forward to 2009 and all the new adventures that are waiting. Right now I'm really tired so I'm going to go to sleep and come back to these changes,problems,thoughts and ideas tomorrow.
Peace out!

P.S here's a tune for you to listen!

Journeys - Bugle

School, Holiday

2008-12-01T23:03:00.002+02:00

So we have reached december. A time of stress and a time of rest. By stress I mean the upcoming three weeks. I have a lot of reading to do, some essays to write and a few exams to do. I'm hoping that things won't get too stressful. But then after these three weeks I'll have three weeks of vacation although I have to read for some exams in January during that time. I'm really looking forward to the christmas break. It's going to be fun to have some more time to chill-out at home and hang out with friends. I don't really have any commercialised ideas of christmas this year. I don't have any expectations as far as gifts go. I'm just looking forward to spending time with family and friends. One thing about christmas this year is going to interesting though. As I am a part-vegetarian now I'm going to give that up for a few days during christmas eve and day. I don't really even know if I'm going to be able to eat the meat or how my stomach is going to deal with it but I guess I'll have to wait and see. I'm going to try and get some of the foods that include meat in our chrismas dinner to be organic. That would make me feel a lot better.

As far as new-year's eve plans go I don't have any plans either. Hopefully I'll get some idea what to do when I go home this weekend. Although I've been living here in Tartu for 4 months soon, I don't have the feeling of Tartu being my home yet. I guess that is only natural because I live in a dorm and it has only been 4 months. Hopefully during next semester I'll be moving to a new apartement. I must say that this semester has gone so fast that it's unbelievable. I have kind of just been cruising along and now that the big exams and things are coming I feel a bit stressed out because I know I could/should have done more. I'm not saying that I haven't learned anything or that I haven't studied but I just feel like it's been all too fast. Anyways this weekend is going to be lots of fun. On friday I'm going to the It's All Good reggae party that my friends are throwing in Karjaa. On saturday we are going to have an old school Nintendo Summer Games tournament with some friends and on sunday I'm going to Helsinki to see Konshens & Delus @ Redrum. A lot of activities and a lot of fun coming up. Peace Out!

P.S Here's some music to listen to.

The Metros
I just found this band a few days ago. They play rock'n roll kind of like The Libertines and Babyshambles I guess. Anyways good music. A bit of a change from the reggae&dancehall music I listen to usually. I don't really get the singers face expressions but they still rock. I guess this one also goes well with my current situation in school.
The Metros - Education Pt. 2

Vampire Weekend
Here's another band that is kind of like the last one but maybe a bit softer. I heard this song in Summer but I never knew who the artist or what the name of the song was. Now I finally found found it and I really like it.

Those Dancing Days

2008-11-30T03:27:00.004+02:00

I just got this sudden need to write. It's really late but whatever. I'm listening to Those Dancing Days right now and some of the lyrics got me thinking about all the really cool but at the same time very awful and annoying things that might occur when being young and partying. I mean things like waking up in a tent at a festival feeling terrible, dirty, sweaty and having a hangover but at the same feeling really happy because you know that a new day of good times is going to follow. The other moment like this is when you are leaving some party/festival in the morning and you are waiting for a bus/train/plane/car to get you home. You just sit there with your friends. Everybody feels terrible but at the same time this whole situation is being shared so there is this good vibe in the air. For some reason I like these moments, maybe not always at the time that they occur but later you realise the greatness of these experiences. Sometimes you even realise the greatness of it during that moment which makes it even better. The picture of me above is from one of these moments. Chilling with a hangover in the sun in the morning at Ilosaari Rock Festival. Still feelin great!

Anyways I just found Those Dancing Days again and I must say that I really like their music. They've got a really good sound, somehow those synths and other instruments go together in their music in a way which is different from other bands. The lyrics are good, the singer has a good voice, they have good style and the fact that the singer is really cute does not hurt either. Here's a few tunes from their debut album. Really nice videos btw!

This is the tune that got me into those thoughts

This one is a bit dreamier. Still supergood.

A little picture special

2008-11-27T15:53:00.008+02:00

Last week Life magazine released it's photo collection for free online use. That means 10 million pictures starting from the 1860's. Most of them have never been seen before. Here's a few nice ones I found.

A young jamaican girl

Che

A young jamaican man greeting Haile Selassie I

Vietnam war

The people of Woodstock

Man in a tree house playing his guitar, 1969 Woodstock

Jamming at Woodstock

Two youngsters barefooted in the rain at Woodstock

A califonian skateboarder doing a hippie jump

The concequenses of being a no-lifer for a day

2008-11-23T03:49:00.006+02:00

The thing about taking a no-lifer day is that during the time that you spend being away from the real world, the real real world actually goes on. I was reading Helsingin Sanomat newspaper on the web and it had some news about a snow storm hitting Finland tomorrow. I thought to myself that " Uhmm, I wonder if if we will get any snow here in Tartu." Because I had spent the day watching a sitcom on my computer I hadn't taken a look outside since 4 o'clock in the afternoon. So now that the time is almost 4m I took a look outside and noticed that it's snowing like hell outside and it seemed that it had been doing so for quite while. So I guess the lesson is that even though you become a no-lifer you should try to stay in touch with the real world. With these thoughts I'm going to try and get some sleep.
P.S here's a tune I was supposed to post in the last post but I forgot about it.

Jorge Ben - Take it easy my brother charles

No-Lifer

2008-11-23T02:05:00.002+02:00

How does a university student spend a saturday? So far this fall I've gone the typical way by going out clubbing or to some other party. Today I decided to do something different. I did what the ultimate no-lifer does. No, I didn't play a computer game all day, I didn't spend the day on the internet. What I did was have a tv-series marathon. I think I accomplished to have the second best no-lifer marathon after the classic Star Trek marathon. I was a no-lifer by watching a show about no-lifers. Actually the show is really good and it's called "The big bang theory". So after 20 episodes I must say that I'm actually quite pleased with my choice of activity for the day. Instead of spending lots of money on beer and waking up tomorrow with a hangover I got to chill out and do absolutely nothing. Probably next week I'll be back on the typical scheme but every now and then you just need a laid back weekend. Speaking of laid back here's a few laid back tunes I've been listening recently. Peace Out!

G.Love & Special Sauce - Who's got the weed?
This is a really laid back tune I found last week. Makes you feel better :D
Whos Got The Weed - G. Love

Rick James - Mary Jane
Now that I got on the topic of weed tracks I have to say that this is a really nice one. Gotta love Rick James!

Lemon Jelly ft. Elton John - Lemon Lucy
You just gotta love this mash-up. Super dreamy and nice

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Beach House - Gila
This is a really nice dreamy indie tune. I love it.

Sound Of Kuduro

2008-11-21T19:06:00.003+02:00

This is the shit! I just found this joint and it's hot. Its like Kid Sisters african cousin, M.I.A and Diplo travelling from Baltimore to Rio to pick up some MC's and then ending up in Angola. I wish someone would drop this at a party. I feel like dancin'

Late november-early december-before christmas-time

2008-11-18T10:40:00.005+02:00

It's once again late november, soon to be december. It basically means that it's getting really cold and dark. For me it usually means a few things. I get into this darker state of mind. It's not like all depressive and sad but it's a state of mind in which I usually think about things, take it a bit easier and just chill out. I don't know how things are going to be this year. So far one thing that I did last year occurred. It's an album but let me tell you the story first if that what you'd call it.

Last year I was still in High School. During this late november to a bit before christmas- time I had a bit more classes at 8am so when I woke up the morning it was always dark. The weather had started to get cold and soon it was raining and snowing. I would always take my bike to the bus stop. The road that goes from my home to the bus stop goes over a bridge where it's always windy and the rest of the road is a gently sloping one which would always be uphill when I would go to school in the morning. I remember hating this road every morning because it was always windy and especially when it was raining or snowing it was a pain in the ass. The waiting was usually a few minutes and I remember just watching the cars pass by and think about stuff. When the bus finally came I would always go almost way back. The bus was usually quite empty so there was plenty of space. As I sat down I would put on my headphones and listen to Jenni Vartiainen's album. The album is quite dark but it's still sort of hopefull and upbeat. The producing is really good and Jenni Vartiainen's voice tops it off. During the 25 minute bus ride I would always listen to this album and think about stuff with my eyes closed or just watch outside to the darkness. Athough I had a few friends who came with the same bus I would usually just listen to this album during the bus ride.

As I got off the bus I would take my headphones off and go inside. The bus was always a bit early so we had 20minutes to chill out before class. The few friends that were having the same class would always ask me to connect my Ipod to the stereo and play the album for them because they didn't have it yet. Those friends were girls as you might guess. For some reason most guys listen to the same music all the time. But there were never any other guys there so early so it was ok to listen to the album. I would have liked to listen to the album later on the day too but then you would always have all the heavy-metal guys and hip-hop guys who would start complaining. But anyways this was my last years morning ritual and yesterday I found myself listening to the album again and I guess I will be listening to it more during the next month.

I would recommend the album to anyone who understands finnish but even if you don't the producing is great, Jenni's voice is great so I think you'll enjoy the album. Here's one of my favorite tracks off the album.

This last week

2008-11-17T22:59:00.002+02:00

Last week went really fast and basically without me even noticing. The weekend was on the other hand quite wild. On thursday some guys from Finland came to visit a friend of mine for his house-warming party. We started partying on thursday and went on til' sunday. During this time we visited dozens of bars, a few clubs, drank a lot of alcohol and had a really good time. I don't really have the energy to go through all we did in detail but I'll say that it was a good weekend athough an exhausting one. Now I'm glad to take things a bit easier but right now that is only in the sense of not partying. I'm having a lot of stress with school right now. Today I had to write a sociology essay. Tomorrow morning I'll have a small exam and after that I have to write 3 essays for this other course. I'm hoping that this week will past fast. My sleeping rhythm is fucked up because I stayed up til' 6am every day of the weekend. In a nutshell I have to get some rest, get through this week and get my shit together.

I guess I should also recommend some music. I haven't recommended that much recently but here are a few tunes I'm listening to right now

Pharcyde
This is what I'm listening as I'm writing this. Really nice super chill out hip-hop. I love it!
Runnin - The Pharcyde

Otha Fish - Pharcyde

Konshens - This Means Money
I'm loving this new track from Konshens. I also just heard that He's coming to Helsinki in a few weeks with his brother Delus. Here's also another track which they are both on.
This means money - Konshens

410ent.blogspot.com - We Belong together - Konshens Ft Delus (Sojah)

Last week

2008-11-14T15:49:00.003+02:00

It's been yet again over a week since my last post.
Last weekend I went to Finland to chill out for the weekend and to party with some friends. On saturday a good friend of mine had his birthday so we celebrated it at his house companioned with great amounts of beer, punch and spirits. The result was as we had expected, we got really drunk. We decided not to go to the club although some of the people went there and later came back. We stayed at the house gettin buzzed and I think that about 3am we went home.
The next morning my parents woke me up and told me that my little sister had a violin concert and that I had to go. At first I was a bit bummed because I was suffering from a thing called a hang over but later I realised that it was actually really good that I went. All the performers played well and I was proud of my sister. She's a really good violin player and because my musical skills are quite close to none then I must say that it's quite cool. The rest of the day passed with just chilling out.

On monday it was time to start coming back to Tartu. The 8 hour journey was exhausting as always. When I got back to the dorm this feeling of distress came over me. I guess the fact that I had spent the weekend in a big house with lots of room and then coming back to a small shared room took it toll on me. Luckily the distress wore off during the next couple of days. On tuesday I connected my camera with my computer and thought that it would be cool to see some photos that I took during the weekend. The photos and especially the videos got me laughing really hard. It's always fun to film long video clips with your camera when you are really drunk and can't remember filming them the next day.
Now we are already entering to a new weekend so I'll try to post as soon as I have the energy to do so. Yesterday was already a weird night worth blogging about. Peace Out!

Into the wild

2008-11-02T23:35:00.004+02:00

Yesterday I watched a movie called "Into The Wild". It's a film about Chris McCandless who left his family and the rest of society behind to pursue true freedom in the wilderness.
I really liked the film. I was not too fond of the directing but overall it was a good movie. The thing that really got me was the story. Chris McCandless was a real person who actually went through this journey. This fact changes everything about the story. As always the real story is far more interesting than the movie but the movie helps you to imagine the story because the film was shot close to where Chris actually went.
I have great respect for him. Although he was unexperienced and unprepared he went after what he wanted accepting the concequences. He found what he was looking for and he was happy with what he had accomplished. The image of the scenery and him living in the wilderness has been on my mind since yesterday and I have been thinking a lot about the feelings he was feeling and imagining myself in similar situations. I think that in some way I have a need or wish for the same kind of freedom or journey. Maybe it's some sort of rite of passage. A grand journey that would change ones life and perspective. Giving up pointless material possession and experiencing something that one has never experienced. I don't think I have the same kind of mental stamina as he did so if I'm going to go on a grand journey then I'm sure it will be different but I can't help but to admire Chris McCandless for his mental strength.
I'd recommend the film, probably also the book that the film is based on and also to read about his story elsewhere. The soundtrack is also really good so I'd recommend that too. It's really good without the movie too but if you have seen the film then the soundtrack is better too.
Here are a few songs from the soundtrack and the trailer to the movie. Peace Out!

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1-year Birthday and the first post in 3 weeks

2008-11-02T01:36:00.006+02:00

It's been almost a month since my last post. A lot has happened and I don't know why I have not written anything down here during this time.
Yesterday was the 1-year birthday of this blog. It's been a good year and I must say that it was a year worth writing about. As I suspected in my first post it is fun to read my old thoughts right now. Yesterday I read through most of the posts in this blog. It brought back a lot of memories. From different parties to just small thoughts a lot has happened and reading and going through the year made me think of how much my life has changed in the past year. From a high school student living in a small town in Finland to a university student living in a bigger city in Estonia. From living in a big house with my parents to living in a small dorm room with a roommate. From speaking mostly finnish everyday to speaking mostly estonian. The changes have been huge and of course a lot has changed in my thinking and other parts of me too but I think it's too early to analyze these changes. But as they say: Change is good and time will tell how these changes will affect my life and what will follow.

I think I should also go through a bit of what I have been up to during the last month. There are only a few bigger things that come to my mind while thinking about october. School, being sick and meeting a girl. Well school has been interesting and as time goes on the more school related things I have to do. From classes to homework. I must say that the academic freedom is on the other hand really good but as always with freedom there is duty. Sometimes it's a bit hard to fulfill all these duties but I think I'll manage. The second thing was being sick. There's not too much to tell about that other than I had to skip classes and go to some seminars with a fever.
The third thing that comes to mind while thinking about october is that I met a girl. I guess there's not too much to say about that either. She's cool and we'll see how things go. Otherwise the month has been quite ordinary. Partying and studying.

I also have to talk about something that I did this week. I created a new blog. It's a street art blog covering street art in Tartu and also some other places so if you are interested in street art then check it out at www.tartustreets.blogspot.com
I guess that's it for now. I just finished watching a movie called "Into the wild" and I must say that I really liked it but I'll try to write down those thoughts tomorrow. Peace Out!

Thoughts in the train

2008-10-05T13:55:00.002+03:00

22 became more like 82 like always with my blogging. I don’t want to sound cocky or arrogant but I do have a life too so I can’t blog everyday.
Right now I’m sitting on a train. I’m 1,5 hours away of getting home. I’m tired and bored. I just want to get home., maybe warm up the sauna and have a nice cold beer. Not too much to ask right?

But as I promised I’m going to attack the thoughts I had a few days ago just before falling a sleep. From thoughts about life and life in the movies ,my thoughts went on to suffering. You might ask how did this happen? Well the answer is very typical for me. Music. My ipod decided to play a song by Bob Marley ft. Guru. The song is called ”Johnny Was” and it’s on the ”Chanting Down Babylon” album which is remix album of Bob Marleys songs featuring different rappers. Anyway I started to think about sufferation and I realised that the buddhist way of thinking is absolutely right. It might sound really cold and depressing that everything is suffering, and that life is just suffering but I think that this is a very misunderstood ideology. The fact is that people are always having to make choices, struggle between feelings and just seeking for balance. Sometimes we even find that balance for a while but it is not constant . We always go through mountains and vallyes. Buddhism talks about the golden midway which symblolises the ultimate balance. Through enlightment we can achieve this balance but as long as we are seeking for that balance we are suffering. This is quite logical I guess. Maybe I’m wrong but these were my thoughts and until someone provides me with a better ideology/philosophy or I can think of something myself, I’m going to believe in it. Listen to the song and enjoy the sufferation, music is sweet :D Peace out!

P.S I wrote this down on the train a few days back.

Old Thoughts

2008-09-30T00:25:00.002+03:00

What I need right now to start writing? Music. What kind of music? Chill concious rap music, no. Not rap music. I need concius hip-hop music right now. Rap sounds too raw right now.(not the music, the word)
This was a thought a had a minute ago. It took maybe 10 seconds to think it but 2 minutes to write down. That is the problem with blogging. You have to write down old thoughts.

Right now I'm going to write about thoughts that were in my head 22 hours ago. I started thinking about life. Serious eh? Maybe. I had a classic thought in my head. Why can't life be like it is in movies? I usually ask this question when I see a fictional character who I in some way admire. Sometimes It's the way this character talks, sometimes the way the character can handle some situations but usually I admire the characters way of just being. This is the exact reason why life can't be like it is in movies. In real life we can never be that consistent. We have certain things we do automatically from our nature but these are never those actions that make our life as a whole. Our nature is not that strong/consistent/wide. We think too much. Fictional characters don't think. Well they do but they think in character. We think as complicated human beings. The fictional characters are always 10 times stronger than we are. That's why we want to watch them.

This was 1/3 of my thinking 22 hours ago. The next part was about suffering and buddhism. I'll try to write about that in 22 hours. Propably I won't remember the thoughts I had then anymore but I guess I'll try to make new ones then ,right?

P.S I still can't find that music that I needed in the beginning of this post. The only one I liked was the first song I listened to, the song that gave me the thought to listen to easy hip-hop. If you know any songs that might get close then let me know. Peace out!

Here's the song. I don't know the name but I think it's off some mixtape. Please tell me if you know the name.
Andre 3 STACKS!!000.mp3 -

In the schools it's gettin hot, cause the youths dem a get so cold

2008-09-23T16:55:00.002+03:00

The day that most of us could expect has unfortunately come. A 22-year-old man from Finland killed 9 people at his school this morning. This time I'm going to approach this very sad incident from a different point of view as I did the last time. Of course I feel exactly the same way but there is no point to bring out the same facts. The point is that nothing has changed since then. The problems that can be seen in the finnish youth are still there and the resources that have been given to mental healthcare are still the same.

The same media circus as last time will follow during the next month. The news are going to be full of people wondering how could this have happened? who is responsible? random information about the killer? Facebook tribute groups, politics saying how unfortunate this was and after a few months things will still be exactly the same.
A few months ago a young man who is about 20 years old, randomly killed a young 16-year old girl in the park. He had mental problems, played violent games, was unsocial and had thought about killing someone for some time already. The same pattern of discussion of mental healthcare in Finland and everything else I just mentioned followed. The same shit will probably follow this time too. I heard a new term for this today. "Murderporn" and that is exactly what this is for the media. Of course they have to cover this story but I'm talking about the way that it's done. If you go to the Helsingin Sanomat webpage for news then all you have to do is scroll a few lines down and you can see the topic " The school shooting is the #1 news story in the world". Nuff said!

My deep condolences to all the victims and the families.
Spread love!
Peace Out!

Lack of Love feat. Sizzla - Gentleman

Cold blooded murderer - Monster Twins

Good Vibe

2008-09-20T15:00:00.002+03:00

It's a new day and a new vibe. The short period of homesickness and stress is now gone. The vibe is good again. Maybe it's because of the weekend or maybe something else but i'm glad. Yesterday was the bashment reggae party here in Tartu. Nice reggae vibes. It was nice to hear some reggae blasting from a soundsystem after the dnb and dubstep partys of last week. Tonight's party is going to be massive. David Rodigan and Rory from Stone Love are going to be playing at Von Krahl and shit is totally going to be off the hook. I'll post pics and vids when I get back from Tallinn. Peace Out!

Do I want to go home? Am I stressed out? Why can't I just chill?

2008-09-17T20:03:00.004+03:00

I've been feelin a bit weird the last few days. I don't really know the reason for this feeling and I don't even know exactly how I've felt but I'd say weird. This feeling has nothing to with sadness and doesn't mean that I would be all bummed out right now. Maybe it's some form of longing for home or then it's just pure stress. I'm kind of nervous about school right now because everything is new to me and maybe that's why I'm stressed. Also the fact that you have no privacy here in the dormitory is a bit stressing. It's hard to get those quiet moments with yourself where you can just relax and go through everything by yourself. Your kind of on the move all the time and you don't have a chance to slow down or stop at any time.
Otherwise everything is cool. I'm starting to get to know some people a bit better from my course and I've had a good time recently. There's a lot of things going on all the time and you never get bored. The next few days are full of activities too. Tomorrow I'll have a long day at school and maybe a few cooling beers after that and on friday there's Bashment Kingz Sound's 10th anniversary party here in Tartu. Probably there will be some other spontanious things too.
Peace Out!